Why is it that I get agitated/short tempered? My mom will say something perfectly innocuous and I get so frustrated and angry! I find it very difficult to keep a normal tone with her and with others and feel like I need to snap at them. It’s very hard to control.
Could this be a side effect from the Abilify or is this part of SzA that I didn’t know about? I don’t like this at all.
I was getting that way on klonopins…so could be meds…but I also don’t have sza so might be the bipolar depression making you easily agitated…I doubt it’s the hypomanic part I get that too…it makes me talk a lot and I’m pretty friendly to most people when feeling manic…
I’m trying to remember but come to think about it I had moments of irritability when I first started Abilify.
It made me kind of cranky when I began taking it.
I had the same symptom on Abilify, lost my temper and very irritated, but most of the time i was placid and gentle, just with a sudden burst of uncontrollable anger.
" Impulsivity is defined as action without planning or reflection, and it seems to be related to a failure of behavioral filtering outside of consciousness.
Patients with schizophrenia may show dysfunctional impulsivity and impulsive aggression. Although the neurobiological aspects of aggression in patients with schizophrenia are still not well understood, impulsivity and aggression may correlate with frontal and temporal brain abnormalities"
It could be depression talking, when I was really depressed I was giving my mom remarks that she shouldn’t have given birth to me and also saying all nasty insulting stuff to her.
I certainly have trouble with this too, when I’m off meds. It’s one of my biggest short comings. Medication helps for me. I get in a lot less arguments than I used to because of medication. I was able to be off meds without hallucinating, but still had a short temper. I notice the upset even if I go just a day without meds. It’s just not worth it for me. I wish it wasn’t a part of my schizophrenia. Deep down I swear I am a gentle soul.
It’s really not representative to take a slice of how you behave when you’re being deliberately and methodically psychologically tortured by voices. No one could remain calm under those circumstances. Their aim is to get a rise out of you and destroy you from the inside out. Unfortunately they sometimes succeed and then blame you for your upset. Well I’m here to say it’s not our faults. It’s the voices fault for instigating relentlessly—nothing more.
I, too, am a gentle soul. I was fine before sz started.
It helps to get in the habit of not cutting people off when they speak. It gives us more time to think about our own response and really be mindful of it. Otherwise it’s more like an unconscious reflex. Let other people talk until they are practically out of breath and then they will be ready to hear you better. Even if they can’t think of a word try not to complete their sentences.
The other thing is I think we get surprised pretty easily. Adult life is mostly one long string of tiny frustrations and small disappointments which we sensitive people are keenly aware of. There are great things too, but you have to learn to filter out a lot of noise to enjoy the good moments better. We pick up on subtle criticisms, sarcasm and body language that most people wouldn’t notice. The slight seems more intense to us, especially since we probably don’t have a lot of self confidence, so that is why we react more intensely and get offended pretty easily.
I also get cranky when I am in physical pain from my back, sinuses, stomach etc… sometimes I don’t even realize that I am physically uncomfortable which is contributing to my irritability.
@keepsimple this is really great advice, especially about not cutting people off. And pay close attention when they talk. I’m always trying to think of what I’m going to say next. I’ve had embarrassing times in my life when people said something to me and I couldn’t think of anything to say in return. But listening patiently then pausing to really think about what you want to say in return is always great advice.