My mom’s voice is very soothing to me, I get that I’m a little more attached to her than most people my age, but it’s mostly because I came to rely on her when the voices and delusions started. She was my caretaker for the two years I was delusional before regaining my insight. I cleared up and became much more independent after the second year, and that was about a year and a half before my mom moved to CA. By the time she was ready to move I no longer needed her as a caretaker.
Still, I am looking forward to living either with her or near her, because she’s so supportive and we get along so well. I plan on purchasing a used car and not relying on her much, but just enjoying her company in the future. I want to be solid enough that when she grows old and possibly needs someone to care for her that I am able to do that.
I could cry at this!! You have such a mature and wise perspective! How beautiful that you would consider taking care of your mom! I hope you can move to Cali, find a place to live, and get a car!!
Thanks for posting that article @LilyoftheValley. I have all those problems explained in it, it really opened up my eyes. I don’t think you realize how helpful it was reading that. I need to practice more self compassion!
I got - this DBT workbook from Amazon - and it was somewhat helpful. I did a two week inpatient crisis program and they taught DBT while I was there. I was still working at the time and couldn’t accommodate a class that ran during working hours so I relied on the book. There’s one specifically for anxiety and depression too.
No, separation anxiety isn’t a problem for me, but when I was in the inpatient crisis center, my agoraphobia was at its peak. That was my focus for the DBT. Now that the Zyprexa is helping me, the agoraphobia is well controlled. I would say gone, but I know it would come back pronto if I stopped Zyprexa.
I didn’t find DBT particularly helpful, just somewhat, but someone else might really benefit from it, so I wanted to share those two resources.