Childhood Abuse really brought on allot of anxiety and heavy paranoia. Paranoia to the point I thought my family put up cameras in the house to monitor me. And at one point going in the bathroom standing on the sink feeling into the walls to see if there were cameras there or in the ceiling.
It triggered my Mental Illness even more where I would get really bi-polar and rearrange my room in one night while I stayed up all night and slept all day. Part of the cameras had to do with I thought they were there to catch me doing something.
The abuse really triggered my addictive personality, and I got on drugs real bad when I was younger. Opiates, benzos, pills, herion. Anything to numb the sexual abuse really. But I did get off them with the help of suboxone and turned my life around.
Although this Mental Illness and what I’ve been through made me the person I am today so I wouldn’t change a thing besides the abuse. I am told by my mom and family I am very strong for what I go through to this day and how I carry myself and how I just get along with each day being Happy Again.
I am Married and have been for 6 years, Known her for 8 1/2 years and the Mental Illness didn’t show till about 3/4 years into the Relationship, Actually right after we got Married. Although I knew I had the Illness before this since I’ve been 13 or so, but I had a really bad breakdown at 27 years old and thank god my wife hospitalized me and got me on meds or I probably wouldn’t of slept for awhole nother week after that.
I"m a very Happy person though now, Married with a step-kid (pretty much my kid now) with a family. We have our own Home and I truly believe I am blessed by god for him giving me the wife I have today. That cares about mme so much no matter what. And actually stood by me the whole time I was hospitalized. Every time I was hospitalized too, and for 3-4 Months on end sometimes in there too.
Just wondering how abuse and Your Mental Illness had an effect on your life and the person that it has made you today