Lexapro-severe insomnia, falling asleep at all causes waking up with full blown panic attack, stiffness in jaw
Effexor-Can’t orgasm
Abilify-Akathisia every day (felt like getting daily anxiety attacks that lasted hours), seeing flashing lights, twitching in mouth and hands, attention span destroyed
Latuda-Akathisia so extreme I was suicidal from it
Risperdal-can’t orgasm, gained 10 lbs a month, made prolactin levels so high I was lactating (greatly increases risk for breast cancer, which runs in my family)
Prazosin-Messed up blood pressure, was dizzy, nearly had blackouts every time I stood up too quickly
Ativan-Gained tolerance extremely quickly, doses would stop working for me after 2 weeks, 1 month at most
Trazodone-Made me sweat INTENSELY at night, sheets and bedding ruined, caused actual fainting
Zoloft-Severe urinary retention & constipation, I’m getting 2 hours of sleep a night barely because of how bad it is, constantly straining on toilet, never feel relief
I ■■■■■■■ hate medication. Also anyone who says not being able to orgasm isn’t a big deal and to just suck it up can keep their mouths shut. It’s my only method of relieving myself sexually because I can’t have actual sexual relations due to ptsd and if I can’t relieve my libido my psychosis flares up and I get hallucinations of being molested so shut up, it’s incredibly important to me. Even if that wasn’t the case, being able to experience sexual pleasure alone is huge. Losing that ability is like losing the ability to satisfy a basic need like hunger or thirst and professionals and patients should take it more seriously.
I’m sorry for the attitude but I am EXTREMELY irritated right now due to the sleep deprivation and all my shitty medication experiences. It’s like I have to choose between shitty physical health or shitty mental health and I’m sick of it. My body can’t tolerate medication. My brain can’t tolerate not being off it. I don’t know what to do and I’m pissed as hell.