It took a while for me to learn how to be kind to myself… how to be patient with myself…
Once I did… things started getting a little better.
This is one of my biggest goals in the upcoming months. I suck at this. Thanks, @Minnii!
Really good lecture. Thanks for sharing! I will keep this in mind as I strive to overcome my avolition. I am going to start reading math again tomorrow. 30 minutes every day, the same time each day. Hope I can make this new routine work. 
I was also interested in math in the past, what topic of math are you reading? I was interested in encryption algorithms and related math in the past, but now I have not studied this topic at all. @Treebeard
Maybe this might be interesting:
Right now I’m learning calculus. I don’t have much experience with math apart from high school and basic statistics. But I’m pretty good at it and I enjoy learning it. And it would be cool if I could get a degree in math, should I eventually manage to recover more from sz.
It’s probably a little advanced for me yet. But it looks interesting, so I bookmarked it. Thanks!