And now I’m looking back at my life. Don’t get me wrong, I ain’t giving up. I’m just looking at the good times and the bad. I’ve done some cool stuff, had some interesting experiences.
I mean how many people can say they have been chained to a table, watched a girl roller skating in a psyche hospital, shot heroin and been fired from 10 jobs out of 30? How about being in the crack house begging hits in the city with the highest murder rate in California one night and then the next night getting drunk in a Stanford University frat house and playing foosball in the dorm with a bunch of rich, privelaged kids?
IDK, What the hell, maybe everybody does that.
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It’s amazing you were able to rid yourself of H and crack. That’s pretty dope @77nick77.
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What I do about memories is decide which ones are really memorable and led me on to greater things and the useless memories where I wasn’t much more than an asswipe. Not to hate me when I was weak, but to learn what or who it was who weakened me.
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I dont think the board truly understands how much a man has survived by staying clean from drugs and alcohol for that many years being an addict, not to mention the paranoid schizophrenia too… Lets all give it up for @77nick77
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Oh, I wasn’t addicted to heroin, just shot it a couple of times. Shared the needle with two heroin addicts. The “Gods of Stupid Drug Use” smiled upon me and I did not contract HIV.
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Thanks @Jonnybegood.
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You are going to have to do something special for your 40th anniversary. Seriously, that is a milestone to be proud of. I’m at year 12 and I’m not sure how to make it that far. You’ve done well.
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Mate. It amazes me you survived and still have a stand up attitude. I know I say it a lot but it’s worthwhile noting those who’ve come before and I really have learned a lot off of you over the years. Long may you continue!
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You’re very inspiring @77nick77! Keep it up! It’s been about 20 years for me but I haven’t had it half as hard as you. You’ve gained a lot of wisdom.
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What age were you formally diagnosed? Did you always knew you had it or did it get diagnosed later in life?
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did the same but with a tiny amount of speed that no one could get even a line off with a heroin addict boyfriend to my sister
i felt nothing lol
only time i injected, felt too easy
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Congratulations on your long term sobriety! You’re amazing!
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Major kudos to you! You’re an inspiration.
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i think you were the privelaged one nick, you were obviously stronger than a lot of people, you survived, you got the survival instinct 
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I lived in a commune that was pretty much a crackhouse where we shared everything, including drugs. It was definitely a weird time for me. One moment I was playing in an orchestra with MIT students and the next I was snorting speed off a mirror table and spray painting my body. I don’t miss it much, but boy did we make some good art
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Hopefully I’ll never have to take a crack at that.
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I would say that strength, luck, and a multitude of other factors are involved. Not trying to be argumentative, but just because someone doesn’t survive doesn’t mean they weren’t strong.
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strength has many forms but so does weakness, i dont think you can have one without the other but you want they scales to be higher on one end 
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I was diagnosed at age 19, the typical age for males to become schizophrenic. When I was in my twenties, my mom mentioned one day that she thought something was wrong with me when I was 17 in high school. But nobody said one word about mentally ill and I made it through high school and when I was 19 a bad acid trip triggered my disease. The rest is history. And incidentally, I got an A in college in history when I was 32 or 33.
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Thanks @rogueone, always nice to hear from you!
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