I often hear my thoughts like past embarrassments, my shortcomings, the traumatic experience I’ve experienced as a child, and things that exasperates me. I literally yell “shut up” every time these thought go into my minds. It happens especially when I am focused on a task like driving, doing university work. I hate it!!! I once yelled “shut up” out loud in public and the person sitting next to me asked me why
Most importantly, I am not sure if these thought are merely thoughts running through my head or I am actually hearing them at this point.
I am also diagnosed with OCD, bpd and major depressive disorder. I am also on Olanzapine, Sertraline and lurasidone. I am on the maximum dose for all these medications. I see a psychologist, psychiatrist and case manager on a weekly basis. This is due to the fact that I attempted suicide before and they are providing me with special care.
Edit: I spoke with my psychiatrist already and I am actually told I have schizophrenia like symptoms but not diagnosed with it