Lack of self-care. I dont shave and remember to use deodorant and shower, stuff like that when I am messed up. A good way of telling how I am doing it to take a whiff as I am near- if I smell, something ain’t right. If my hair is not trimmed pretty short, something ain’t right.
Anhedonia by far.
How do you mean you have no thoughts? I used to be aware of my thoughts, but now on abilify, I feel like my mind is a blank. But I’m sure it’s just because I’m no longer aware of them. Or maybe it’s not, you have me wondering now…
Maybe I’m just not aware of my thoughts like you say. But I feel like my mind is always blank.
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It makes me feel really stupid, like I have lost all the knowledge I had on subjects that interest me. I’ve even lost knowledge of myself.
I find myself grasping at straws in return to work meetings, psychology sessions and sessions with the drugs nurse because I feel like I have lost all insight into myself and am stuck with a complete inability to express myself in face to face interviews because I have no thoughts.
I don’t know if that makes sense.
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Actually I have trouble expressing myself in face to face conversations too. Especially when talking about schizophrenia. I’m kind of ok when it comes to written stuff, like texts/email. But I suppose it’s because I have more time to think.
But maybe I have poverty of thought too. I’m really not so sure now.
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Yes typing gives me more time to think as well. I feel like I do an ok job of expressing myself on this forum. I’m not as good as I would have been a couple of years ago before the biggest psychotic episode I had.
I don’t mean to sound like I am bragging, but I used to be a really good communicator. Now when people talk to me, they are probably feeling like they are just talking at me. I don’t seem to take much in and I don’t give much back in conversation.
I feel very limited. It’s something I am trying to work on to improve.
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Me too. It is a major accomplishment to go shopping. I went to see BFG last night and found it hard to concentrate, but played it off well. The most disturbing part for me was leaving with the crowd. WTF? I use to be an extrovert and love people. I can’t tell you how many movies and things I have seen, but can’t remember. Anyone have trouble with memory?
I would love to go to a concert but I"m too afraid I’ll freak out.
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I know but there are no easy symptoms for me
Having low energy levels - too fatigue to hit the gym 
Once i played hide and go seek with my son and his girlfriend in the woods behind my house for 4 hours and when i came home i was so dirty and muddy had to shower. When i got out i sat by a window and saw my son and gf get off the school bus. That was the weirdest thing ever. I wasnt scared at all either but i had no idea how i saw what i saw in the woods for such a long period of time.
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Never feeling completely alone with my own private thoughts. I feel like there’s ALWAYS someone watching me and/or my thoughts. I miss feeling alone. God what I would do for privacy. :’(
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speech problems - if I concentrate enough I can talk right but then everyone wonders why it takes me so long to talk - if I just talk i mumble jumble mix up and people then laugh at me asking do you know what you just said - you would think my own family would be more considerate.
theyre alll bad
Alogia its the only sympom i have, positive and negative, which has persisted since my second major psychosis. Its gotten to the point where im completely silent for months on end. I think my situation is somewhat unique. None of the schizophrenics i have met ever seem to complain about alogia.
being alone would also mean being alone to cope with the symptons–I think a little less privacy in return for help is worth it.
I have alogia as well, and for me it’s the worst negative symptom. It seems it doesn’t get better, while avolition can managed with some effort.
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lack of pleasure and avolition
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lack of motivation (avolition) and numbness of feeling bothers me a whole lot.
when i cannot feel my emotions i feel horribly unwell and i don’t like it at all. it’s intolerable for me.
judy
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avolition xxxxxxxxxx
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