I am so happy to finally get on Sertraline tomorrow … i still am struggling with the idea of going back to work… im of the mindset I don’t ever want go back to this place… it brings panic over me… but my psychologist feels i need to face it …
I just to start the medication although I know it will also take work from me…
Hope it helps you. Good luck!
Thank you although I know too well I can’t rely 100 percent on the meds … there is a lot of behaviours I need to unlearn… and rebuild myself
Excellent! Good luck @anon80629714! 
Thanks @Wave I feel guilty and the psychologist is right I should not have walked away … but it got too much …i don’t see myself going back but I work towards not repeating the same thing again
also is it weird to have missed being on meds?
I don’t think so. Sometimes we all need a little boost up.
although I didn’t quit the meds out of choice, for a while I felt maybe the pdoc is not bothered so I dont need them… but time went on and I just want to feel good … or better … so i decided to go back on…i love being on meds when I manage to find ones that work
I hear ya. Finding one that works is what it’s all about. Hope the sertraline is what you need. It’s basically a big shot of serotonin. What’s your diagnosis these days?
If i am honest I have stopped caring about the dx because first they said sz then schizoeffective then bipolar… now although not officially diagnosed they are treating anxiety … still does not explain the psychosis… i guess whats more important is treating the symptom i learned this the hard way as i used to get so fixated on the actual labels…
I see. I was just wondering. As I recall you went through a few “labels.” I agree with you, as long as they’re treating the problems at hand, the label doesn’t matter so much.
Yeah i used to be obseessed about getting a diagnosis, but it never really mattered… but yes they treating anxiety so I hope that it helps if not I can try something else …
When was the last time you had any psychotic symptoms? It’s hard to keep everyone’s story straight. You basically had an episode of psychosis and they treated you with Abilify for a while, yes? Then no relapses?
Good luck to you @anon80629714. There’s always hope to cling to.
I was on abilify for approximately 10 years … at some point in those 10 years I also started tegretol… i never had another psychosis during this time… but clearly got paranoid and felt like being judged but could have been anxiety related not sure
Gotcha. I’m battling against alien noises and rumblings still. It’s tiring. This illness can wear one out quickly, eh? You’re a good egg. I see a lot of potential in you. That you’re still chugging along is proof.
Thats very sweet … and I get it can be exhausting and a job it itself battling all these thoughts and emotions… i feel i have been trying very hard however have been doing it wrong over the years and hope my psychologist can help with that… i wish they didn’t wait 10 years to refer me for proper therapy
It’s very annoying where having mental illness is hard enough, but then you have to argue with the system. It can be a bit much. I’m a big fan of therapy. I hope your psychologist can help too. You deserve peace. You’ve always been so kind and supportive on here.
I hope it goes well for you!
im super excited 