I have jealousy up to an anger. I wont never hurt anyone but I am to this point that sometimes I burn inside me because I still find unfair that I live between 4 walls. I am quite shy to talk about my jealousy but can I reduce it somehow? by distracting myself with some other things can this help me?
and also, is the jealousy a burden in order to feel the pleasure of living, love also? yeah… I still think that I should stick with my meds. ive tried many meds in the past, they never helped me to become happy. I feel depressed but I find also that I dont think well also which is yiakk already… my ex pdoc told me to stick with Zyprexa and Depakote…
in this illness, I took all on me, like I was guilty for everything… I hope ill become stronger one day and just happy. but I am still questioning myself if I should poursuite other meds. ive done it for the past 7 years, I dont believe really much on them but maybe its an error…
the best revenge is succeeding, Anna.
I use to be very jealous in relationships, but not in the one I am now (and have been for over 8 years).
I don’t know if Clozapine helped, or if it was due to the fact that me and my bf knew each other for about 7 years before we started dating.
I think I felt jealous once, but that’s it.
In any case, he lifts me up on a daily basis.
you know, my friend who is ill also slept once at my house with one of my exes… I didn’t said anything, that’s how I am in real life now. but it makes me angry, it sucks… I am jealous of her who goes outside and succeeds to live…maybe I should revalue my friends cause wtf???
who suffers like me now? I dont believe in recovery anymore. tts too tough/… I am tired to fight… my mother says that some schizophrenics are closed like me so that they even dont write on the forums…
p.s. ill tell you if one day ill feel better but its too tough… I dont talk even since child and I cant imagine to live without talking to others, really…