Some of those delusions were hard to let go they make you feel special. Eventually my voices were gonna force me to jump off a roof and i got really scared and checked myself into the hospital where i saw another guy who was psychotic (who id seen at other hospital visits but it didnt click) and i realized thats what i looked like. Been on medication since
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The meds can have side effects that become long term major problems like morbid obesity and diabetes. Some people also mistakenly believe that once a drug knocks out the voices they are gone for good which is almost 100% not true. Also admitting you have the disease can put great restrictions and stigma on your life and people want to treated like their normal again. Itās not just believing you are not sick. You reach the point where you donāt āwant to be sickā.
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I dont think anybody wants to be sick. But i accept it. I really dont want to be sick. It sucks. But its just part of who i am now. Diabetes only happens if you eat incorrectly. Habits determine your obesity. Im 200lbs. Gained 30 pounds on meds. Im pleasent though. I dont eat great. I drink a red bull almost every day. I started drinking more soda. I know i shouldnt but i do it anyway cause taste is one of the only things i find pleasure in anymore
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For me Ive been suicidally depressed and assumed that my meds were pointless to take because they werent helping me much. Its really a cry of desperation.
Other people sometimes just get sick of side effects and cope okay in the short term but slowly deteriorate.
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You can get rebound psychosis if you dont taper off aps slowly thats about all I know. Guess the brain trys to rebalance when coming off.
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Akathisia is arguably worse than the schizophrenia youāre trying to treat, at least in a lot of cases. Still, itās important to keep trying new APs until one works without akathisia. This process took me two years though, so I totally understand when someone says they donāt want to do it (like my recently diagnosed brother). Still, itās unavoidable if you want to get better.
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It is sometimes just the way it goes in medicine. For example, a lot of people with heart conditions are noncompliant with their heart meds.
It took me a while to find the right meds. Iāve seen and met people who donāt take their meds. They freak out. Stay on them till you see a pdoc.
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I have akathisia pretty bad. Iām always moving in my chair. Kicking my feet. Or crossing and uncrossing my legs
Come to think of it. I wish I could stop meds lol. So many friggin side effects
Akathisia made me burst into tears in the middle if a damn restaurant, well that and major depression.
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They have meds to fix that, no need to suffer.
I used to pretend to take my meds but the people who care for me caught on to that so I take my meds on a regular basis beats having paranoia palpitations and anxiety or depression I still have occasional anxiety but that subsides with medicine and music sometimes calms me down. Also, I donāt have no side effects at first, I did but I have been on these meds for many years, and they donāt affect me like that anymore. I take Abilify15mg at night and Lexapro20mg.My dad took Lexapro10mg at one time and couldnāt take it he had every side effect listed on the paper. It all depends on the person every person reacts differently to different meds, or sometimes one med works for one person and doesnāt work for someone else and etcā¦Mental Illness is a disease like any other people need to take their meds or face spending their life in an institution
Weight for meā¦more 35 kilograms since 2010.
I simply forget some days. But I get back on track for the sake of myself and everyone around me. Iām compliant, just a space case. It should be easier as I have to eat with one med so I take all others then too. Speaking of, time to eat and take them.
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I never wanted to take my meds because it ended my flying career. I begged my doctor to take me off of them every time I saw him for several years.
Then I just quit one day and that didnāt go very well.
I have learned and take them religiously now but I used to have a problem with forgetting too. Especially in the morning.
But I started using a pill box a few years ago and if I get to feeling unwell I go check it and know whether I really forgot or not.
I think that really helps. But filling it up every Sunday is not something I look forward to. But I always do it.
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Iād think flying without meds would probably be incredibly dangerous.
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Well I didnāt take any medication at all when I was flying. Except Malaria pills in third world countries.
And in combat we got some help too. 12 on 12 off seven days a week usually working nights.
I have 7 prescriptions and 5 of them the FAA says you canāt fly with. Even Benedryl an over the counter med the FAA says you canāt fly for 12 hours after taking one. I take 2 every night.
I still go flying occasionally but only with an instructor and never by myself.
Any psychotic disorder is disqualifying even if you donāt take meds.
Of course I probably should have mentioned I wasnāt diagnosed when I was flying either.
35 was the best year of my life. 38āthings went downhill from there.
I was 37 when I came back from my second combat tour in Iraq. My wife says I wasnāt the same when I got home but I didnāt get diagnosed with anything until 38