hi 
in fact, I almost suffocate when I should talk. its coming with pain all my talking. can it get better with time? I hope meds will help on this too …
I am still angry to my spoiled friend. she complains for less than I have… her parents are supportive. maybe mines aren’t because I dont progress anymore since years… maybe I should stop give a ■■■■to those so called friends… fed up with all this :(. ill keep trying
kisses
I sometime feel lot low and depressed then ever… recovery is really a great game …try everything u almost can…as far as i am concerned i still struggling with diagnosis and medicine…!!!
try everything u possibly can …!!!
Keep trying my friend! Dnt give up!
will I go out some day of my jealousy state where I think that my friend is just one spoiled girly wow? what a stupid question but I dont find the support from my parents and she has it frome hers… me, I am criticized since child… my parents only wanted from me were good notes, good job and good family. they didn’t got this. they got my illness and for my sister I am a zombie…she said it once… Ive decreased my Depakote, I was feeling ver depressed on it plus I couldn’t think at all on it…
I got yelled at for piping up as a child and it made me very slow about speaking. Parents often get afraid of what their children might say and don’t want them to say anything. “Children should be seen but not heard.” was all too common a maxim.
I get jealous of people I see on TV and people I see in real life. I wish I didn’t.
i have difficulty talking and socialising…self help groups are good…check out this site… http://www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/f12/
also, http://experienceproject.com/groups/Have-Social-Anxiety/364
also for small talk tips, ask after family, friends and any other interests u may share in common
I don’t have any physical pain when talking but if your experiencing anxiety when talking with others consider getting on an SSRI like Lexapro or Zoloft. There both fairly safe and have really good results in most people. Otherwise I’d recommend CBT therapy, which makes me a total hypocrite for suggesting because I’ve never gone.