When you think back to your most loneliest periods of time in life, or current situation if it’s at present. Do you think it was a time of growth/expect to be able to grow out of that situation?
I’m only 29, so not as experienced as most forum friends but I feel like during the periods I was most alone I have given more to my engagements, whether it was work or hobbies
How do you feel about these periods of time?
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I felt lonely when I was in psych hospitals and nobody visited me during visiting hours. I just stayed in my room.
I find the loneliness with episodes of schizophrenia are the exception to my otherwise experience of loneliness - I can sympathise with what you’ve written here. It’s the worst kind of loneliness one can go through, but it did mature me in some ways (as twisted as that may sound)
I felt loneliest after becoming stable for the first time and realizing I wasn’t the world’s hero…or Jesus’s right hand man. it was all a lie my brain told me…I was lonely but I had a gf during the initial first year after stable mind. then it got me suicidal because of being impotent on risperdal. didn’t wanna’ live if I couldn’t have a gf. two attempts…discovered my spirituality again when I got put on abilify (also horrible med for me, but better than risperdal as far as sexual side effects), I started online dating and it tooke me to corners of the nation twice, now in my second marriage and happy as ever…you have to be happy with your meds and you have to have hope for your future.
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it was when I tried to commit suicide years ago. I died on the inside that night. I never felt so lonely
I’m doing much better now. Haven’t had any suicidal ideation or, really, any depressive thoughts in a long time.
Yeah, it seems you grow the most when you suffer. I say that you truly don’t “grow up” until both of your parents have passed away (I know that sounds strange).
I dread that so much. My parents, for all their flaws are definitely pillars in my life. This is what makes me want to be employed in the future - because I need a partner in the future. My parents are pillars but only for so long - siblings don’t have the same time for you the way a parent does
That’s so good, I look forward to the day I eliminate those kinds of thoughts
@jukebox i hear that man, I’m glad you found your wife. And it gives me hope i can be loved by. A future partner too
I have severe trauma from my earlier days up until my early twenty.
No one knows about it.
There’s no point talking about it. It’s a waste of time but it does make me stronger because wen u hit the rocks u either die or go back up to the air.
I’m an incredibly fragile person as a result of it.
But I’m not totally weak, I would like to think.
I’m really sorry to hear that.
Rock bottom for me was constant suicidal feelings. Feeling that I was the only one out of all who ever existed or will exist that was so awkwardly wrong and weird with my existence. I had extreme positive and negative symptoms and wanted to be completely left alone for 3 to 4 months straight and just exist. My love for racing rc cars and bicycles and motorcycles was always there though. And a desire for a significant other was there most of the time in these times of suffering and desiring loneliness actually. I knew damn well if I had the money I would be out riding and racing though and mingling with others. I got to the point many times where I wished in anger that I never came into existence so I would never feel the things I was feeling. I was in a constant state of blaming myself and the world. This period in my life has led me to grow to a point in life right now that I could not have reached if I did not go through it.
I went through a lonely time in my life before I met my current husband and I think during that time I became more spiritual 
It was around that time that I had to finally accept my diagnosis and work on not self sabotaging anymore, like I had done in my 20’s.
I’m going thru a lonely time right now. Probably the loneliest I’ve ever been. It’s kinda weird though, I enjoy being single and being lonely from time to time. It’s very peaceful
Sounds like you’ve been thru a lot… I would say that’s a sign of strength. Not weakness. I see your point though
I was more lonely probably in my early to late 20’s. During some of that time I was in the service and hook-up culture was a big thing back then. I always felt like the odd one out when my fellow servicemen were out meeting women at bars and I spent my weekends watching weird movies.
I don’t really get lonely too often anymore. I have my baby Jimmy and a really good support system. Plus I’m good at keeping myself entertained.
I felt loneliest age 14-16 when I was homeschooled for the final years of high school.
Now I’m pretty comfortable in spending time alone. I’m very introvert these days.
Thankyou Dizzy.
Like a loss of precious time.