I’ve been mostly well medicated for 7 years. The meds dont fix or cure the delusions at all. They seem to reduce anxiety pretty well.
I never hallucinate. Never did.
So am I really delusional or are the meds not effective? I’ve tried most if not all of the second generation and a couple of the first generation. I had NMS before.
My current diagnosis is SZA but I’m likely bipolar instead.
It sort of is like assuming the belief in God is a delusion and expecting the meds to cure that delusion. Or taking meds to not believe the grass is green anymore. Also, what if in a past life, I saw red grass? Am I delusional? I’m not saying that’s true or that is happening. What I’m saying/asking is what if my delusions in this world were true in another life/parallel universe and I remember them now? It’s more philosophical. We dont even know in this world yet if parallel universes exist or if aliens exist, but I believe it because I was there. What if other worlds are very similar to ours? That seems to be the case from my perspective. It sometimes causes distress for me. So while the meds dont cure it or stop me talking about it, it reduces the stress/anxiety.
Maybe off meds, I’ll talk about it less.
It sort of feels like my soul / mind is eternal. I have memories in my head of other existences almost exactly like this one. The physics is the same. But what actually happens sometimes changes.
It depends how much your delusions are stopping you from living your life. If these beliefs aren’t causing you distress or interfering with your life then no problem.
If they’re all you can think about and you’re trying to make reality fit around them then hey presto problem.
What @everhopeful said. Everybody is a little crazy, even those without diagnoses. As long as the beliefs don’t interfere with daily functioning and not hurting yourself or others, you can believe whatever you want.
When is a delusion, not a delusion. Well i would say that if you can produce evidence for one of your beliefs, then it isn’t likely to be a delusion. Delusions typically are beliefs you hold, even in the face of evidence to the contrary. What you’ve described does sound very philosophical, but again you wouldn’t likely have any evidence for them. So they could be delusions as well. If you have delusions, it all depends on what impact they have on your life as @everhopeful has said. If you are able to live your life without the delusions interrupting and causes you distress, then i guess they’re okay. However, if the delusions do interrupt and cause you distress, then you should speak to your pdoc.
Meds don’t change the content or regularity of my delusions or paranoia. But they do reduce my reaction to them. I am less prone to intense feelings of desperation.