That was worst.
Precious Moments but not necessarily year…
Some of my best moments of my life were with my sacred neigh and riding her but I was isolating and sick and lonely n paranoid n delusional this time period too so I had those moments riding my neigh and just being with her too but rest of the time was not so good despite living in beautiful qld back then.
Some of my best times were with Anders but some of my worst times was around that time too because I was hearing voices 24/7 and was in agony and delusional and was a bad friend and girlfriend.he is incredibly thoughtful and caring and funny and kind.
Some of my best moments were with my child hood friend ju### .
She was my best friend too.
I was a bad friend to her too.
Some of my other best times were with friends I had and family too.
When my mum visited for three months it was great because I had isolated and was so lonely and we even laughed together and she showed me how to make slippers and told me to jay walk n took me to dance lessons etc
My mum and I can fight easily and she can get furious but we did not fight as much as usual which was great.we became vegan together.she is still vegan n I’m just a wanna be.
Moments with my family
Things like holding my stepmoms hand and cuddling family and holding baby in arms .
Great sex making but I have difficulties with sex because my voices were for a long time years sex torment Moanes etc n I was binge drink sl## when I was younger so I’ve not had that many great sex moments.
Most were not so good.
Cuddling and loving
My dog I had was a love of my life and I have not even mourned her.
I loved cuddling her and etc but I was hearing voices when I had her so I used to scream at the voices all day and my poor neighbours …
Being with loved ones
Being in nature
Swimming in Swedish lake with Anders
Being with my bf n his dogs is also some of the best moments of my life.
Such as today I had a dip in our little plastic pool n it was over 42c in the shade.
Nature,loved ones,laughing etc
I do not laugh often and my bf n I do not have same humour.
There was another guy who also was so funny but I have not felt him for ages and miss him hope we are still friends.
Hope he is well.
I miss him.
He was so close to me.
I miss my loved ones females and males
I have a loving peaceful home now with bf and his dogs and my neigh agisted not far from us.
I still have difficulties and avoid dinners but I seem happier than I was when I lived by the beach and now it’s like a hours drive to a beach and it isn’t a good beach like where I used to live but I was lonely there and isolated when I wasn’t with my sacred neigh and I thought those at dance class were attacking me and I couldn’t socialise baaaaa