I take 2 mg Risperidone for borderline personality disorder. The only bad thing about it is that it kills my drive mostly. Also my sex drive and it gives me a bit of anhedonia but I don’t mind both.
The positive things… I’m not impulsive anymore, I don’t harm myself anymore, don’t do stupid decisions, my dissociation and depersonalization are gone, I’m more calm, I’m more resilient to stress, etc.
Im on haldol. What i like and dislike depends on the dose.
On a regular dose there isnt much to like, i just sleep my days away and want to die. Only good thing is im too spaced out and sleepy to act on that.
On a lower dose i like that it numbs the worst emotional pain/fear and thus i dont go into psychosis. I dislike that it numbs the good things too and therefore makes me feel like an unloving person.
Does anyone recognize this: I feel it makes me less empathic. I hate that. Though things like sitting frozen on a public station a whole day in total terror and grief over all the hurt in the world and the way i contributed to that, refusing to buy anything for that reason (food, water…) and being dragged to a police cell might not be the right way to experience empathy either…
Saphris - It just basically puts me to sleep and kind of makes me feel like a robot. Doesn’t really stop episodes or help w/ any symptoms for me, that’s why I am working on my own solution. Drs have tried about 8 different medications on me and none of them did anything other than just sedate me. Episodes still happened. The only thing that seems to actually be positively affecting me and my symptoms is my vitamin concoction I have been taking and staying the hell away from caffeine.
I’m less prone to a stress induced meltdown on the Paliperidone depot. I don’t feel negative emotions as intensely as I used to. I also don’t feel positive emotions intensely .I’m emotionally quite flat. Paranoia is lower.Don’t get the unconnected phrases and sentences buzzing through my brain like I used to.
Risperidone is the king of APs. it turned off my voices like a switch. I get a very mild form of oculogyric crisis sometimes when I’m stressed, and also some tounge sucking, but to be honest I would’ve taken much worse if it meant my voices could be gone.
I’m on invega (xeplion) it sedates me but not for a extreme extent. I also do mimicking sometimes and twist my neck when I’m agitated. I also often feel flat.
I take 5 mg’s of Risperdal a day.Terrible diarrhea and last month weight gain.Either way,I like it,more energy,no voices (finally …).Maybe the weight gain isn’t from it,because for first three months I had none.
I’m on 4mg of risperidone and 1500mg of Depakote and I feel sedated, I’m eating everything in sight.
I’m empty headed, I feel flat, I’m having low libido and ED issues.
I basically lounge about the couch and eat like there’s no tomorrow.
Effects:
Much decreased paranoia, no thought insertion, no thought broadcasting, no thought control, rare audio hallucinations, no other types of hallucinations, decreased delusions of reference, normal even mood, more normal sleep pattern, decreased anxiety.
When i take enough meds daily i feel leveled out. I dont like that much - no feelings, thoughts, action. It scares me. Now i mostly take them in crisis and they help with that.