10 years. Ever since I got sick. Started out thinking nothing was real that I was in the matrix and possibly went through a wormhole in a parallel universe…
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@anon28145038 ooh, the mysterious ellipsis, so spooky! 
Coming and going for 2 years now lol
I called the police on my parents for harassing me about taking meds. My dad started to arrest me but then my mom stepped in and he changed his mind.
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what is the definition of “delusional” here?
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Several months at a time. If left untreated, which was my first 3 times, 3 months, six months, 18 months. The last 3 breakdowns were shorter before I was sectioned but I’d say the last delusional state had built up over 5 years and came out in a few weeks and then I was sectioned. The antipsychotic treatment was brutal and shocking. I wish they had talked about it instead if drugging me. I am still in a state of braked dead shock many months later. Can’t get over the shock of hospital admission and aggressive treatment. Wish they’d left me alone to come out of it on my own without brutal hospital trauma. On my own it just recess after a few weeks or months and the aftermath trauma is not so shocking as it’s a gradual letting go and returning to sanity.
I got sick in August 27th 2011 (one day. I forced myself to remember that day like it was important.) and have been delusional since. It’s been every day; some of it is severe like matrix theory. It was like a light switch came on and never turned off and went away. I truly hated it. I suffered.
It’s been 9 years so far and I’ve been delusional every day. Nothing has helped. Caffeine makes it more amplified and weird. But deep down I still believe certain things.
Some of my delusions are stupid like I thought tv shows and some movies were based on my life like tv show characters. They resonated with me. I became obsessed with ‘Lost’ and a few other shows.
Some more than others of course.
I have missing memories or time. I have confabulated or false memories and pseudo-amnesia I guess (all self-diagnosed). I feel like I have trauma.
I often blame certain people or entities or groups but deep down inside it could have been grey aliens and possibly some reptilians.
I really don’t know what happened to me but I am serious and convinced something happened to me.
My biggest concern is going back in time like ‘Groundhog Day’. It’s an infinite loop that never stops and always repeats. The future changes but I am concerned I am not alone and things are changing, although only slightly.
No one gives a rats ass anymore. I’m invisible and a nobody.
I could go on, but then I’ll just feed my own delusions and go off several tangents and ruin this post. I rather not!
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It’s easier to say the longest time period I haven’t been delusional. That was about 5 minutes back in 1974.
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Almost 2 years straight at the beginning of my disorder. Then I started getting better.
it has been more than six months until now.
2 years. Then I was hospitalised for the first time about 17 years ago. The medication stopped delusions and I was so happy not to have schizophrenia.
It was the worst 2 years of my life being psychotic.
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I guess I’ve been delusional a long time. My worst period lasted for 2 months straight where I conversated with the voices and tried to appease them. And yeah, Im wondering if something wasn’t done to me because I vividly remember something highly unlikely but plausible happening to me. Not aliens or Gods. But meeting a hypnotist. There I said it. And it terrifies me. I don’t use that word. I avoid it. I’m scared of it. He lives in the real world. I can find him online. I’ve never looked up his birthday but I know he’s an Aries. Other people know I was in close contact with this person for extended periods. This all in the real world. So it’s unlikely yet plausible that he messed something up inside of me. Which just serves to make my delusions all the more real.
I was delusional for about 3 years straight. I thought that entities were reading my mind, first it was real living people then I thought it was the people in my dreams. The delusion was reinforced by the dream entities playing out thoughts that I tried to block. At one point I thought it was demons and tried to kill myself, they barked orders. I was miserable and just didn’t know what to do. Went to the hspital several times. I also hallucinated my delusions which made it terrifying. Now that I’m better I feel something of a hole in my chest because I was delusional soo long. I’m finally starting my life over. One thing that helped was just realizing that all cospiracies I had read about were likely untrue and unimportant and that there are no entities watching me. There’s nothing out there we are alone whatever life exists is too far away and that gods are made up. That last one was hard because when I was psychotic I used to pray every night and even feel entities around me, but that was my imagination. Anyway, the thought of God made me more paranoid, just reinforcing that entities could read my thoughts.
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I went years untreated and got worse as I aged, for me my thoughts were, just the way life is, as I aged my mind got worse with racing thoughts not stop that wears you down day by day, until it got so bad, one could not hide it anymore
probably six months with times of sanity in between.
I was delusional for over 15 years.
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Some might say ive been delusional fot decades.
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I’ve never not been delusional. First time I got home from college, I had thoughts that I wasn’t real, life wasn’t real, external reality wasn’t real, I lived in the matrix, and that I might have went through a wormhole. But other than that I had severe negative symptoms. I had those 2 delusions and negative symptoms which was “enough” to diagnose me with undifferentiated schizophrenia. Since then, I’ve been sort of low functioning or treatment resistant and had dozens of more delusions which I expanded upon and worsening of symptoms and cognition. My diagnosis changed a lot and I found out I might have Asperger’s Syndrome after my diagnosis at 22 years old. So basically, I’ve been psychotic or delusional non-stop since college at 22 years old which is 9 years ago. I’m 31 now.
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An example of an expanded upon delusion is I escaped the matrix and even helped run it. But I think it’s total ■■■■■■■■. I also experienced what “Neo” went through at the power pant and there was no “Zion” or Ship Nebecanezer or anything. I just woke up in my bed or back in time in another life. To repeat life. It was one of my scariest moments in history.
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