The stepfather suffocated me with a pillow so i couldn’t breathe and said the only reason I’m alive is because he wants to be with his son and not in jail.
Another time he held me to the ground n licked my face and another time he slapped me and pulled my hair .
They said I’m not a member of their family and I never felt loved by them but that they had some hate for me and some psychological bdsm against my will where they hurt me emotionally and then ridiculed and mocked my suffering .
I was treated differently than “siblings”.
When I was Alone with “mother” I had blood test and was malnourished I was picky with food but there wasn’t usually any food in fridge .
She said things that broke my heart that I won’t say here but kinda meant she didn’t love me.
Seems like she wanted to destroy me and when I was a little girl she kinda did destroy me psychologically.
She studied psychology but may of used it to do harm instead of good.
The stepfather and “ mother would say nätte platte är det synd om nätte plättar and mock and rideule my suffering and laugh the “mother seemed to enjoy my suffering and would laugh .
“Mother “ said he is diagnosed psycho but I wonder if she isn’t and others in “ family “ too.
The “ father” just put me in my bedroom and told me to stay there .
I wasn’t myself then and nasty things went on.
I also had class mates in one school and was liked but these girls got jealous of me and dominated me to be their “friend” I was probably their b I t c #.
Like I was threatened and made to do stuff against my will etc
Then that year in Oz as 12-13 i was not in my body .
Seriously that kinda wasn’t me.
What happened then ….
I hurt and suffered to much and cried as a child why does no one love me.
Never felt loved or space to just be me and just be.
Thankfully they said they were against hitting children but nasty stuff happened I can’t explain now.
It’s illegal to hit children in Sweden.
I don’t believe in hitting children but they do need to be told clearly when bad behaviour is not acceptable such as the children in this neighbourhood doing nazi salutes and walking over one aggressively invading one’s space .