Hey @anon10648258 . Wasn’t being critical of you. Your a good person and don’t let anyone else tell you otherwise. Was just pointing out that it’s a common problem worldwide and it sux for the average person much less someone with health needs.
Much peace and hugs.
@daydreamer I have heard tell that if you are sectioned you are not allowed to drive for like 4 weeks or something.
I have spent time trying to see if this is true or myth. My results were inconclusive
The way that my country sees the disabled is extremely negative. It’s considered a shame of the family (which is weird they think like this). Or a sin committed by my past life.
We can’t get jobs, and if we do, we are forced to work for high number of hours than others. A disabled person who was forced to work more than they should died by suicide recently.
I’ve also been yelled at the bus for being “too slow” and I can’t even begin to tell you about what my family has said or did about me.
I don’t know…I think me living in this society really made me be a negative person that I am now.
So, you agree with the people of your country that physical disability makes you ugly and disgusting?
I try not to think that way, but I can’t help but think the same. It’s something that I’m trying really hard to get out of…
When I get told this so much…every day, in the streets and on the news, it becomes as if I am that person. The person that they portray me as. I know it’s not true, but I’ve been told again and again by people around me that I’m just a shame…
Thank you. I know you mean well.
It’s just that the news have been portraying us with a very negative image lately and last night I watched a segment where parents of a blind school was fighting with the neighbourhood to keep their school alive. I try so hard to avoid the CPTSD triggers but when so much injustice is happening, I can’t keep calm.
Positive self talk would do you a lot of good. When you hear yourself telling yourself things like I’m so ugly, I’m disgusting, everyone hates me, etc. Tell yourself to stop. And then, as if you were telling a dear friend in your position, correct that voice. Say something like, I’m not disgusting. It takes a lot of courage and strength to get through all I’ve been through. Or whatever encouraging/motivational thing you would want to hear from a friend or you would tell a friend. Treat yourself as well as you treat your friends.
I will try my best. I’m also not going to watch the news for a while. It’s just keep making me nervous and anxious. And yes, I must correct my inner voice. I have been having a very negative self image lately and I’ll try my best to fix this. It’s not easy but I will try!
Thank you for your help. I’ll work on it 
Don’t feed the Mogwai after midnight and definitely don’t ever get them wet. Don’t harvest belly-button lint in public. No yodeling after 11 pm. And absolutely no karaoke, ever. (Just in case that was missed the first time.)
Our medical system can’t handle those already here. There are some bad things happening. overcrowding, poor treatment, no treatment, waiting lists, etc. Don’t take it personal, but an economic reality is that demand always exceeds supply when something is “free”. We’re struggling with that fact right now.
That’s fair. I know that.
I’m already planning how to hide away in Korea.
I’m okay with staying alone in a quiet countryside by myself for the rest of my life.
I think schizophrenia makes people beautiful. They are very creative with such fantastic viewpoints. That’s one of the biggest reasons why I like this site, people are real. I like real people.
Yes, but not countries.
Yes, but not entire neighbourhoods.
Yes, but not the society.
Thank you for your kindness, but this is not how others see me.
I am trying so hard to not think of me as a horrible person. That’s what I was talking about with other members on here.
But I am a burden. Two entire countries hate me. Even my home country hates me because I am disabled and I don’t know if my abusers will come back and haunt me. How can I love myself? I can be creative…but I’m hurting in so many ways. I’m not even considered a human being here in Korea.
I’m trying really hard, really hard to not think this way but I was at a verge of tears for the past few weeks. I’m trying, though. It’s not easy.
Whenever I’m feeling down about myself or life in general I make gratitude lists. Things I’m grateful for:
A place to live
Family
Beautiful Weather
Things I’m grateful for about myself:
I have a nice voice
I’m a good writer
I’m compassionate
You should try it I hope you feel better, sometimes it does feel like the ■■■■ days will never leave.
Yeah…if I stay in Korea, I will forever be sad but it’s better than nothing. I’ll try to be more grateful.
Sounds a bit excessive? I’m sure there’s a happy medium to be found.
By that standard, most of the countries in the world hate all of us. Sz alone is enough for most countries to deny residency.
As long as there are very little people around.
Come to Canada,
We have AALLL the poutine.
True.
I have a feeling that my country will gladly kick me out because I have sz. Or because I am at risk to ruin eugenics. Because I am just born here…they just keep me here I guess.
I’ll be okay though. If I do end up here, I will just move beside a sea and teach English or translate. Living beside the sea sounds cool.
Conclusion: everything is going to be okay.