I was turtured with knives and razor blades when I was in my early teens. My brother did this to me. I still have scars in my eye corner and finger. He did not like when I spoke aloud and then he punished me in this way. I had to lie to teachers how I had got some wounds, because others did not want any trouble for my brother. I have not seen him since 1994, but I believe he was also a part of intelligence network that spied on me in America. Now he has four children and I am this lonely paranoid schizophrenic person.
A little boy was smiling, telling things
saying truths to other people
only to be punished by his brother
with knives and razor blades he was tortured
to make him quiet, not to speak aloud
he was tortured
that little child, so innocent
never to be allowed to tell the truth
told to lie to teachers how wounds have come
how he was tortured
he learned, he had to protect his torturers
people who really physically made him cry
always alone crying
but deciding to educate himself
for the future he wanted out
from the environment of torture
he wanted to escape at the first chance he got
and he got it through education
to escape, he blocked his mind
not to remember
but scars in his finger, in his eye conner
the living proof of torture he got
that little child, always polite, always smiling
only to escape far away
far away from his torturers
but memories became unblocked
only to remember his torture
knives, razor blades, fists
only to remember the past
know and remember his torturers
now and forever.
@ComatoseâŚwell done for standing up to bulliesâŚI wish I had the ability!
I hope one day you can forgive your brother and also be reconciled some day. Its sad the way these things go but hopefully things improve and work out for you all.
hey,
I was a tall nerdy kid who read books who worked for years in the auto industry! It was common for " newbies " and others to be picked on constantlyâŚit was just a part of working life back in Australia in the 80âs and 90âs. It wasnât pleasant but you got by. I guess it was all about that machismo and such but most of it was totally out of order!
Saying that! You never let it beat you and you learned to get by. Iâm not condoning that behaviour but I think most folks went through it! I didnât know I was mentally ill back then although I showed signs! Life gives you a lot of curveballs but if your batting you need to learn to hit that off speed delivery!
A friend in the struggle,
rogueone.
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i was humiliated in front of the whole school at one point but i was a scowly person looked peopleright in the eye boring through their soul to leave me alone
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Yes. Hardly ever at school. Not regularly but there were some incidents. I felt bad when they bullied me but in a way I wanted them to like me and I wanted to impress them. I wanted their approval. Pretty sick, right? It took me years to realize that those people who bullied me were assholes. Plain and simple. No excuses.
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I hate it when people make fun of me for being straight edge. People have invited me to stuff only to go out of their way and make a big show of Un-inviting me because I donât do drugs or drink. Iâve even had a guy break up with me because I was too much of a goodie two shoes.
There was time very recently where I have been asking myself, what would be the harm? Why am I being such a stick up the butt about this? If I just gave in and finally had a few drinks and finally tried a joint, how bad would it be? If I just do this one thing, then I will have more friends.
But I most likely wonât. Iâm trying to remember that my real friends donât need me to prove anything. Bullies wouldnât be my friends. They will just find something else not to like about me, and then something else and it will never end.
I was very close to giving in. But then my brother John got involuntarily committed the day after St. Paddyâs day and my straight edge conviction is back on.
You should be proud to be a goody two-shoes. You havenât fallen victim to wasting your time or your life on drugs.When your defenses feel weakened just have a talk with your brother about how much it sucks to do drugs. NEVER get into the mindset that, âOh,one time wonât hurtâ. Big mistake. People will tell you that one time doesnât hurt. Donât believe them, donât fall into that trap. Believe me, if you stay on the straight and narrow you will leave behind in life all these people who do drugs. I think you have an impressive job and good character. Keep up the good work. I know itâs hard to resist temptation and pressure to do drugs. Stay strong.
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I used to get bullied in school. I was picked on because of my clothes, large glasses and talking different than others. I was somewhat of a nerd to the other kids. I really think that Iâve come a long way because I used to feel rejected and alone sometimes when that would happen.
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One time was i bullied, the next day i wore a dragon shirt and they stopped calling me Mrs frizzle. True story.
I donât remember being bullied much when I went to school, maybe a little bit. I became ill as a young teen and that brought a host of problems concerning school but bullying wasnât one of them.
A few years back I was thinking about the rising awareness of bullying on the Internet. I wondered what all the fuss was about and why it was considered worse than when I was a kid.
I think now that itâs the Internet itself that has amplified the effects of bullying. In my day if you were bullied you could go home. Today kids use social media and the Internet to bully others and those hurtful actions linger in the Net. You canât escape a Facebook post or a pic posted on the Net. The bullying becomes non-stop.
Also, people, even good ones, can become assholes on the Internet. This leads to bullying being more popular than ever as making a hurtful post is much easier than saying something in person.
Kids have it rough these days.
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Thanks everyone⌠Now I know I didnât have it as bad as I always thought I did. I just had a double faced friend in grammar school that would always call me âspazâ make fun of my last name, beat on me a little. One time shortly after my mother died he and some other friends locked me in a hot garage just to rile me up. When I got out I went ballistic and tried to smack him with a baseball bat. In high school I decided I didnât want to hang around him anymore because he acted like such an â â â â â â â . I found a new group of friends and never regretted it. I am still an acquaintance with him on Facebook and friends with his family but i donât consider him a close friend anymore.
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I feel like it would be wrong to like this post, but you are not alone. My father, his friends, and kids at school.
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Think of the like button as showing support for a person and the post theyâve made. The post may have content that you wouldnât âlikeâ but the sharing of such content is where the like button come in.
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I was bullied as an adult while my symptoms were the most severe. Anytime I see someone I think could even be distantly related to the bullying I usually end up going bat â â â â for a couple of hours and have to hide myself away until I can regroup.
i get bullied now i walk around with my dogh and yesterday an bloke just laughed at me right to my face anywhere where there is a cliche where people know everyone else people can bully yyou and aggressive phone people trying to sell you somthing.