So today I was experiencing anxiety. It wasn’t very strong but it was there, I’d say it was the same level of anxiety I got on about 2.5 mg of Abilify. I am really hoping it was some kind of freak accident or related to me drinking caffeine after not having eaten for 18 hours and not the geodon because akathisia is a hard no for me when it comes to staying on an AP and like I said only Risperdal so far has not given it to me out of the ones I’ve tried before.
I’m keeping an eye on it. It’s mostly passed now. I’ve been on 20 mg of geodon twice daily for 3 days now. I was on 20 mg of geodon once daily for 3 days before that.
Yes that was told to me by the last psychiatrist I saw too, that the pines were best for not giving akathisia. But the pines are also notorious for weight gain and I am already slightly overweight. So I basically have to choose between obesity or an anxiety disorder. Lovely.
So far the only thing that has helped me was a benzo. Ugh maybe I just need to be on a benzo for the rest of my life too. Ughhhhh
However when I have a normal schedule i.e. socializing, going to class and work, and getting plenty of sleep my psychosis is pretty mild and manageable, with maybe an occasional flare up if I’m under large amounts of stress. So could be I just keep an AP around for times when I know I’m going to be especially vulnerable like this month. If it’s only for a set period of time I can tolerate it. If it’s for forever I can’t.
Soooo benzo, theanine and one person did hemp oil (so weed?? Lol). Gues I’m trying theanine bc I don’t really want to go back on a benzo. Some people did antidepressants but that didn’t help me. Where do you get theanine? Like a rite aid?
Geodon ruined my life, I have horrible mood, life-threatening heart problems, messed up sleep, and the worst withdrawal symptoms whenever I try to stop taking it, I’m thinking of going to the hospital today