I can see we are on the same wavelength here. I too am not sure How I’ll carry on but I can only be hopeful for the future. They say that as time goes you get better and better. So hopefully in a few years we won’t have negative symptoms anymore and can live a more normal life. I’m currently looking for a part time job. Something easy so I don’t waste away in my bed.
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I know I have to live with it no matter what. Doesn’t mean I have to enjoy living with it. It sucks! Some days I’m more positive than others. But the way this week is going I’m feeling very negative towards schizophrenia
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I love being bi polar it’s my superpower
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@matthewj
You shouldn’t be having manic super powers if you are taking your meds. Are you off meds?
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Yeah. Super powers would be awesome. But if you honestly think you have super powers it’s time for a med check.
I kinda like being bipolar to it’s just that sometimes mania can make bad choices
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I hear ya. Yes, it is tiring to be ill. Well, I don’t think about it too much these days since I’m stable. I try to focus on what I can do, not what I can’t.
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My memory is generally too crap to remember the previous day, the voices hold baggage not me.
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Memory is definitely an issue. Luckily mines not terrible but I do forget a lot about the day before. Just my emotions remind. Oh yeah you are happy. Oh yeah you are sad.
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So important to do. I need to do more of this kind of thinking. I get so hung up on what I can’t do anymore that I get depressed. I also have depression and anxiety disorders
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I try to look at it as, “boy, I’m sure lucky I don’t have these much worse conditions and only have SZ instead.” Helps me be more upbeat and energetic as I go through my day.
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At least we have schizophrenia in this day and age with medication and effective treatments. I keep coming back to this because its true. I can’t imagine what it would have been like even back in the 40’s. I have often found that gratitude goes a long way into erasing despair.
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We’d be locked in a crazy people home if it was the 40’s. Or in jail. More like Arkham Asylum
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That’s a good way to look at things. I’ve also thought of what I’d rather have. Like losing a leg would be better than this I think. Cause at least you still think normal
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Sometimes I think about how I will miss these days. This is a period in which I have no symptoms and no side effects from the medications. Every day is absolute joy-- to wake up, to go through the day doing something, etc…I know I am cursed so it will not last.
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Are you on any benzos?
That is what some people with Bipolar claim.
However, I doubt it is true…
If you cultivate a positive attitude you’ll generally have good days. If you spend every day cursing some aspect of your existence and/or those who are faring better, you can expect a lot of bad days.
How do you like spending your day?
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I had a three day span of really good days. It was awesome. But now feeling my “new normal” I feel like ■■■■. Just nervous all the time. Keeps me from enjoying anything. I’ve tried everything. Meds, working out, walking. Nothing takes this feeling away and it pisses me off. It also pisses me off when I tell my doctor this and he does nothing.
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I wake up around 4:30am. Turn the coffee on and take my puppy out. Then we come inside and I sit in the recliner while she runs around. And usually by this time I’m either feeling nervous or good. I have to get up to check on the puppy so that keeps me distracted. I sit in the recliner until my dad gets up.
Then I usually go lay back down because 4:30am is very early. After I wake up from my morning sleep pretty much makes the day.
If I feel rested it’ll be a good or bad day. If I feel tired that usually means I’m gonna feel tired all day.
Usually around 3 or 4pm is when I get paranoid, IF I get paranoid. It only happens a few times per month. It’s odd that it usually happens around then. I don’t even have to know the time. I think it’s the day going from afternoon to evening that throws me off. I never know what to do at this time. So I either sleep or I sit out in the living room with my dad.
My noon to 5pm can be made up of video games, reading, writing, drawing, feeding my puppy, taking her out for pee breaks, chewing tobacco and laying down when I feel tired in between doing things. Usually if I draw or do anything that uses the focus mode of my brain then I have to lay down after. I’m also watching lots of videos throughout the day.
5-7 I sleep. 7pm my mom gets home and we all sit in the living room till 8/8:30pm when I take my puppy to bed. Bed is my favorite part of everyday because I wake up nervous
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