I don’t think I will ever live with a partner again.
It was perfect living with my x in sa with dogs and perfect home and although we were together 24/7 I couldn’t get enough of him.
I treasured every moment with him and was happy and nature perfect too but I left to become vegan because he hates veganism and “wouldn’t let me”.
My boyfriend I only see weekends and he is not stable enough financially or emotionally for us to live together.
My landlady won’t let him live with me and I’m not moving in to his apartment he rents.
Think I will live in this apartment I rent rest of my life as I know the land lady.
I have family nearby.
I wouldn’t even live with a financial free man as h.
Maybe he would accept me as I am and not expect me to clean but i would be giving up this apartment and what if we broke up I would have nowhere and nothing.
Guess I might be a weekend girlfriend rest of my life.
If someone wanted to marry me or live with me they would have to bring a lot to me and make it worth my while.
So my future seems to be that if I have a boyfriend I will be weekends girlfriend.still faithful though.no sleeping around.
Continue doing what I’m doing such as exercising.
Be vegan rest of my life.
I hope to meet new people and make new friends who are good to and for me.
Beautiful people.
That I’m comfortable with and they with me.
Hopefully I won’t get lonely and will be able to take care of myself and always have a dog.
I don’t know if I will ever live anywhere else.
I miss the country so much.
Only place I truly felt at home but i don’t think I can afford living there or cope all by myself without family nearby to help me.
Marriage is only beauracracy n doesn’t prove love plus I had a delusions about someone getting paid ten million to marry me and not love me and act .
I don’t need a ceremony to prove love is real.
I feel real and genuine.
I think I know what real is.
My boyfriend and I have no contact weekdays so I don’t know if we will just be friends or if we will spend the rest of our lives seeing each other on weekends.
I do love being with him.
Have beautiful sacred eternal loving relationships I hope.