Wow so much revelation. What a struggle that belief is. But I regress. I’ve been listening to Terence McKenna and he is more of jesus than I could ever be. Then I think “wait I don’t want A Jesus. I don’t want a messiah. I don’t want to worship you Terence! Just wanna listen to you”. Then it all came folding down. What next??? If I don’t want Terence as my messiah, why would anyone want me as their messiah?
Simple answer. No one wants a messiah. Jesus could come back and run you over with his bike you wouldn’t say oh ■■■■ it’s Jesus!! You’d say “get back here so I could beat yo ass!!”
Now it could come back. But I think I have decent evidence that not only I am not the messiah but there is none.
Hell im still the man. Look at all I survived. But don’t have to be Jesus to be so.
Maybe I should start writing a book "overcoming grandiosity in the brain " or something!! And share my experiences and advice.