A pdoc I saw months ago said I didn’t need the antipsychotic , says I do not have schizophrenia as my illness isn’t that progressive for it to be that… I have not had a psychosis since the first one, ten years ago… so stopped both my antipsychotic and mood stabaliser … he prescribed different meds (a mood stabaliser and antidepressant) but I got a reaction so had to stop. And I did not even get to starting the antidepressant.
The new doc I spoke to over the phone prescribed an antihistamine to take as and when for anxiety…and said he’d call me next week to speak to me and my mum to assess me properly… that was three weeks ago…and heard nothing. Hard to get hold of anyone.
I am scared to go psychotic, does not matter how much my psychologist tells me I have to keep telling myself I feel like this because of anxiety… i still feel i might get it again.
The first pdoc even said it could be a possible ptsd due to psychosis
Try not to get stressed about getting psychosis again. I did this before when I went of meds, and the fears were going around in my mind and I obsessed over it so much it became a self-fulfilling prophecy
I am really trying but it is very tough. Sometimes I get paranoid about people… but oftentimes I know it is not paranoid psychosis because I know my fears are not always based on the reality of the situation… I don’t like myself… so I feel others don’t like me… I have a tendency to catastrophise (spelling)… I am trying to listen to my psychologist though… I am getting somewhere at least. because I am going back to work… thats a step in the right direction…
Lots of trying to talk myself out of it, tell myself it is anxiety, worry schedule… even trying meditation … I am getting there slowly but still very difficult.