Even though they are triggering for me it’s the only things I really like doing. I’d rather be triggered than bored out of my mind.
Both my writing and music are works in progress, but I am still young.
Look at Ninja from Die Antwoord. He was 35 when he made it. And I am from a generation its okay to be even later blooming maybe.
I’d love to be a musician or a writer as well, but unfortunately lack any real creativity 
You gotta practice!!! And think out of the box.
At this point after everything I have been through,
I would be ready to do any job. Or any volunteering, or studies or anything really.
I would take any job to enter the job market, although I wouldn’t give up on something I like.
The problem is I can’t work unfortunately, nor do studies or volunteering etc.
Not yet at least.