Telling my doctor in the morning that I’ve been thinking of hurting myself. And that the voices are worse, almost worse than ever. I very seriously thought about taking a bottle of Lithium this morning and I nearly did it but just couldn’t force myself… Kept picturing myself being in a coma… I think if I were to do this it would be something faster than that…
But I don’t really want to do it anyway. I just want the demons to leave me alone. So hopefully my doctor can help. I know once I tell her about this she’ll have to commit me, that’s the law here and she’ll put me in a hospital. So probably tonight or tomorrow morning is the last I’ll be posting on here for a few weeks.
Best wishes, hope it helps. If you don’t feel safe waiting until you can talk to your dr, there’s always the ER. Do what you need to do to get the help you need.
Thats good ur taking action on this. The worst thing i do is keep it in. But i was conditioned by my high school peers to not talk about it so i stopped for a long time. It took me a while to get used to even talking with therapists. I still don’t talk about my voices with anyone and what they actually say except u all. I would be as open and honest as u can
Good luck @Sooner88. You’re a good guy , and a smart guy. Don’t do anything stupid though. Please tell your psychiatrist everything that you’ve told us. We’re all rooting for you.
Good job talking to your pdoc about it. I had to admit myself to the hospital for suicidal thoughts before. I REALLY didn’t want to hurt myself, but the thoughts scared me badly enough that I went…It scared me like crazy but I think it was a good thing to do in retrospect, and I’m sure it will be for you, too.
You’ll be out before you know it, soon as you’re stable and not considering harming yourself.
How beautiful that you’re choosing to save yourself!!! I hope you get exactly the help you need and relief from the torment. I think you should be really proud of yourself!
No hospital for me. Doctor wants to try me on 15mg Abilify plus 100mg Seroquel. She’s gonna make sure I’m seen by someone (her, nurse, therapist, etc) EVERY WEEK until this is resolved. She wants to keep me out of the hospital since she thinks going to the hospital makes people more depressed (which it does). She said I’m having a mixed depressive/psychotic episode.
