Does anyone have one or want one?
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I think I want to get text, of intrusive thoughts or things the voices have said.
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I told my husband yesterday I want to get a portrait of one of my hallucinations. We spoke to our favourite portrait tattoo artist yesterday and have a police sketch artist draw it from my description.
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what words would you get??
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Iāve thought about getting a sketch portrait of the hallucination I see that I always thought was my son visiting me. I want to get that next to a memorial tattoo with some balloons.
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There are a lot of options and I havenāt really narrowed it down. Iāll probably end up with more than one, at some point. Thereās a lot going on up there 
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I donāt know what a big red or black circle would do. Or bugs. Or stars for that matter.
I actually had the stars come back recently and that felt good.
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There is a middle-aged woman who is always trying to get my attentionā¦ I might get āExcuse meā on my arm in cursive 
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Absolutely not. My hallucinations are some of the scariest things Iāve witnessed. I donāt want reminders.
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That is a very valid point. There are definitely some things that I would never want permanently in my skin
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Your son visiting you? Please tell me more. Where is your son. Iām so intrigued.
I hate seeing bugs. Ever since I was a kid Iād see the ābuggiesā
I had an instance with them again last summer but didnāt know until we had an exterminator come for a second time to our hotel room and realized Iām nuts. I got a discount for my kids to play after though so hey I guess having a mental illness has its perks.
On a side note yesterday I was raking leaves and all of the bugs were being born and flying out and I donāt know. Something in me went haywire and I started seeing them crawl all over my hands. I knew I was hallucinating because it was too many bugs but I needed to be sure and went to my husband and son that just looked at me. I made a comment about my sweater and my son said it was clean so I knew then. I went to the bathroom and tried to brush and wash them all off. It was awful because only ten mins later my MIL and her friend showed up for dinner and I needed to pretend I was fine. I became so tired I fell asleep at the table. It was awful.
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This is a really hard one to think of. Iāll get back to this topic in a bit.
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Yeah you made it through appearing that you are normal though.
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Yes that was fortunate. I wished I could have looked more happy or that I was enjoying myself. Having visitors is exciting but so stressful and exhausting at the same time I donāt know how everyone does things that feel like so much. My brain cannot handle it. I think maybe a sz.torum meetup would be interesting.
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Yeah then Iām sure we could all understand if one or two people canāt pay attention or fall asleep or we could recognize the signs that maybe someone is a little bit off and ask them if they are okay.
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My son died as a baby. I hallucinate a 5ish year old boy that I always thought was him. I donāt remember now what lead me to that conclusion, but it used to be an ineffable fact. Now I know itās just an hallucination. I havenāt seen him in many years, though, since being on the haldol. Itās my biggest motivator to stop treatment.
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That is so very sad LED. Do not stop treatment though because we have to remember the things we see are not real. As real as they feel and seem to us. I am so very sorry your baby passed.
I am fairly certain the stripedshirtboy (also the tattoo I want) is my son. He would be 9 this year. But I had an abortion and I think he intended to come back and haunt me but now we are close and play with our kitties together. I also am aware of how that sounds. But I donāt care. I wanted him.
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It would be so nice to have a group of people in everyday life who shared similar symptoms and we could help take care of each other. Support each other and recognize symptoms before they become too bad
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I would get a bottle of alcohol and a marijuana leaf on my upper left chest and write R.I.P at the bottom
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