The discs in my spine are giving up on me. So the orthopedist decided to take some of it out, which are herniating towards my sacral nerve.
The gouache paints finally got here, but due to final exams, I would have to try out the gouache well after the surgery.
I’m a little scared of not waking up- then I would never be able to try out paints, ever! And that’s really sad.
The hospital psychiatrist assured me that they have tested my blood to see what works for me best. He said that it’s a common phenomenon to have anxiety before the surgery.