In the news, it’s always those people who repress and never talk about suicidal tendencies that actually do it, and those who are open, are being honest with themselves and their feelings, and they create a conversation in which they can be in greater touch with themselves and their healing becomes more natural too. Just something else I want to add, those who can tell a lie every now and then, have a greater opening toward telling a hard truth, something not really related to suicide, but I learned it today in a book I’m reading, and I think it is so true.
When I was suicidal I didn’t tell anyone because well…I wanted to die. I told my mom months later and she said “Why didn’t you tell anyone” and I said “Because I wanted to die, I didn’t want to go into a mental hospital”. The thoughts still persist every now and then, don’t completely go away, but I’ won’t kill myself anytime soon I’m sure of it.
Yeah, sometimes I have to force myself to talk and be with friends, but I know it does help.
Dude man… Sometimes all it takes is for a person to let what’s bottled up inside out and maybe they won’t feel so bad.
That’s all a therapist is…an outlet.
I can’t afford $ 50-100 an hour so I come here.
You know? It’s so much better.
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Suicide is very stereotypical. It has caught the eye of a movie producer. There are movies with great plots on suicide. It’s not a good thing, a person needs help, a life is in danger. An emergency hospital could help and a prescription for sleep and support. Sick people want to die and healthy people go on with there lives.
the time leading up to my worst attempt… I tried to act like I turned a corner.
I went out of my way to cheery and happy and joking… I worked hard at being Upbeat and giving away all my stuff… I told people I’m just having a bit of a clear out and getting the clutter out of my life.
I think I was too cheery, that tipped my kid sis off that something was deeply not right. She’s the one who found me and called 911.
We had a suicide at the assisted living center where I live. It totally caught me by surprise. The guy had left our program about a week earlier. He came by in a car and I talked to him briefly. I asked him if he was coming back, and he said, “No, I’ve got it too good where I am”. I think he was living in a trailer. A couple of days later my case manager read about his suicide in the obituaries. He put a shotgun in his mouth. I reviewed all the times I had seen him before he left, and I saw no signs of suicide in his behavior.
Suicide is a terrible thing.
We need to help each other out so we don’t get to that level.
There was this other guy who committed suicide shortly after he left here. I didn’t think he had it in him. He talked so much ■■■■ about how bad he was. I always regarded him as something of a clown because of all the ■■■■ he talked. When he ran full out he was going about as fast as a slow jog. We have a set of weights here, and one time we were in the weight room. He weighed about 270 and he couldn’t bench press 135. He couldn’t bench press half his weight. I didn’t say a word about it, but I think he finally realized how stupid he was. He left our program, and a few days later he committed suicide with booze and pills.
I’m glad she did found you. She would have missed you. It hurts to be alive. We forget that our loved ones suffer if we’re gone. Getting help is important. Taking meds, group support and talking with family will help.
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