Song about psychosis

An old song I wrote and recorded about ten years ago.

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NIce. Great sound I do like it.

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This is pretty neat! Can you post the lyrics too?

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STARLESS

Beneath the thin facade that covers my real face
Lack of affect conceals the panic in my eyes
Poker face in place like I’m not worried about a thing
But inside my world is burning
Dark wheels turn in the starless sky

I wear a false smile but I’m just trying to be polite
Part of me just wants to bleed til I’m no longer here
I can’t let what can’t be real drag me down into the ground
So I wear a mask no weakness shown
Aim my ridicule straight at you

The voices change but the words are all the same
Invisible I hear them calling out my name
My opinion means too much to them
Their opinion means nothing to me
The center of their tiny universe
Why the ■■■■ does it belong to me

No matter where I go they always follow me
Trapped in my skull
Wish I could drill a hole
Set the ■■■■■■■ free
Repulsion nausea endless melodrama
Are they really part of me
Sickened by the thought
They’re the children of my disease

Poisoning myself nothing to lose
Prognosis unclear so I choose
To slowly drown them all
Drown myself
Sink into the sea

Please do not take this as anything to suggest that harming yourself or suicide is a a valid choice. It’s just a song about how I felt when I had been off meds for almost two years and was still involved in substance abuse.
Shortly afterwards, I got clean and made a choice to be med-compliant. And my life has gotten better and better.

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Good singing @eighteyedspy23, I’m impressed. I couldn’t carry a tune to save my life.

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That was kick ass good!

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Thanks @ninjastar, @77nick77, @rogueone, @Pat6398 and the others that gave it a like.

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Absolutely love it! The guitars reminded me of bob mould. Am very impressed

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Thanks this is the part that rrally hit me and I wanted to make sure I heard it right. Very powerful!

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Wow I love it! :heart_eyes:

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Cool. I relate to it somehow.

The song has a professional quality.

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You are singing it?

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Yes. Programmed the drum machine, played guitars and bass, and sang.

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I like your singing voice :slight_smile:

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If anyone is interested, there are more songs posted on reverbnation.com under the name Trash Martyr.

thats a bad-ars song dude I like it alot

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Thanks @gcar. 15151515

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so proud of you !! as a guitarist I am humbled…I wish we were neighbors and @Jake could play drums for us…

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Thanks @jukebox!
I bet you’re having a blast with your new 12-string.
Looking forward to the video. :sunglasses:

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yeah my callouses are just now growing again…I played the six string about three songs a day and this 12 string is twice the callous building and I can’t keep my hands off of it every day so it won’t be long and I will have callouses worthy of Slash.

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