I don’t want to be a slave to this beast. Waking up every day at the same time to go to a job i hate just to get two days off and start the misery all over again. Some may say that’s life but that’s a crappy life. Maybe if I do something I’m passionate about that would make it easier, but I feel like it is either buy into this system or get left behind. I have no choice but to act sane and try to hold it together. I know what everyone else thinks sane is so i can try to act that way, but it just feels forced. I never fit in with society anyway, but I guess the prospect of being obliterated and leaving nothing behind scares me. I guess I’m just looking for meaning in my life and maybe someone to understand me. I’m sure some people here can relate
Im in a job that is not my passion but im good at it and its low stress. Im not micromanaged. I can do other things on the computer at work and no one cares. I get to joke with coworkers. And i get money to live.
So there is jobs out there that you dont have to hate, which there are tons of awful jobs with awful bosses too.
Yeah I hope I can get involved with something i’m passionate about. It would definitely help
What would @crazydiamond444 be like if he stopped trying to be sane 
Would he be in hospital, prison ???
If it wasn’t for my hubby looking after me i would be in hospital or supported living and worse than i am now
Would he be in hospital, prison ???
When I had my first psychotic break I tried to steal a car… twice. Once while someone was still in the car (literally an attempted carjacking). I wasn’t well, what can I say?
Almost everyone thinks the same thing about waking up everyday same time to go to job they hate for two days off. It’s pointless and dumb but I have found life without work to be boring and tedious also. It’s actually nice to have work to go to some days. Sometimes I think I would like to be free to focus on improving myself through reading and art but if I suddenly had no job and living off savings I would probably only read and draw and stuff for like an hour a day. Either way time is painful no matter what youre doing
Do you think you’ll ever do anything that bad again?
No things are a lot better now than they were in 2012.
@crazydiamond444
I read your posts, i would say you have good days and bad days, am i right?
But its good that you see a good deal improved
Wishing you all the best 
i never belonged in jobs. i worked in companies for 10 years. it is no fun. i like fun. good times. freedom.
Yeah, some days are better than others. Today has been a good day. And thank you for the well wishes. it’s very nice of you 
well, sure.
but you gotta. go to work, I mean.
You know the old grass is always greaner saying.
I find comfort and solace in being a dropout from society.
The rat race is for the dogs.
I hope you can find a job you feel more passionate about.
Yeah true. I took a few years off work and somedays i either slept for 15 hours or id do absolutely nothing on the couch and eventually get frustrated that im doing nothing then go back to bed.
Work kinda gives a forced structure to the week
I worked in the corporate hell for many years and it just fought me and I fought it and eventually I had to get out before it ate my soul. I can’t do structured work esp not 9-5 suit&tie it’s a soul killer plus your job is to ruin other peoples lives never again nomore
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