The thought never occurred to me until recently at my first counseling appointment in 8 years. My main “delusion” is that my husband is cheating on me. I’m convinced that when he leaves the house he’s cheating. I’ve put key loggers on his phone and computer numerous times. I’ve went out looking for him. I even resorted to putting tape recorders in our house and in his truck. I listened to the recording and heard the tv. Thought it was his friends gf so I called and cursed her out :(. Then I came to the conclusion that it was him abusing our child which led to me calling the police on him. The police thought I was insane but let me go home.
For a while I thought I had gone insane. It lasted a week, in which I cried almost continuously. I couldn’t function at all during this time.
For a few weeks I believed I was going to fall off the earth if I wasn’t under a roof and was outside. So everytime I went outside I would panic.
I’ve believed my in laws were abusing my children. I also believed my husband, my mother, my sister were abusing them.
I believed I was l locked in a closet and abused when I was young because I can’t remember a lot. So I scoured through pictures for hours and hours looking for “signs”.
My most debilitating problem is the cheating thing which I spend most of my days looking for “signs” of my husband cheating by googling him and his screen names.
Does this sound like schizophrenia? I don’t really have a reason to believe any of these things but still feel like they are happening. My thoughts won’t stop. I can’t stand being around other people because they’re all thinking bad thoughts about me.