Normally I don’t drink much…if at all, but I had friends over (wife’s friends) so there was no other option (running low on ativan). In response, I must have drank enough to kill a normal mammal. In fact it’s difficult to type this (thank you autocorrect).
I noticed, cognitively ,I feel more normal than I have in years. Like my mind is slow and it’s soooo soothing. Plus I don’t really care about the things I normally would, like being watched, manipulated. I feel like I can’t be touched. Almost like there’s an invisible shell between them and me. It’s awesome. Even now, my upstairs neighbor is thumping around like crazy and I don’t give a ****. Like he knows what I’m typing and that just typed made him mad. All I have to say is **** you upstairs neighbor.
I know alcohol isn’t the answer…to anything…in fact it starts a problem that starts a lot more problems… But I have to say how odd it it how alcohol makes me feel like I used to before all this crap happened to me. Free and careless.
Thank you autocorrect and the ability to go back and change random gibberish to sensical nouns,verbs,adjectives, etc… Before hitting “New Topic”. These technological features are awesome.