After many tribulations I’ve managed to secure a part time job. 30 hrs/week, doing the only thing I am moderately good at, software developer.
I need frequent cigarette breaks and I use deep breathing and I listen to chillout music whenever stress threatens to disrupt my focus and drive. It’s not easy, but I manage so far.
Two weeks into the new adventure, everyone around looks happy for me, which strenghtens my motivation a little bit.
Will I be able to hold the field? And for how long?
We’ll live and see.