Think I’m at a normal level, but been alone for so long not sure how I would handle that part of a relationship. Mania can drive your partner away, has in the past and you feel even worse when you crash.
Living alone can be hard to cause your mind likes things it normally does not, then that disappears and move on to the next, stupid circle of likes then no likes, alone often you feel your being watched and everyone knows. Drives a person to insanity and stress levels the norms get time off for.