Are you Ok? Genbu
I canāt stand negative people. Theyāre toxic and make me feel bad. I hope these people find a way of being happy in the conditions they are.
I would say that Iām quite a dull as well, because I give attention to these people.
I smell like chicken soup 
Iām okay but just everything seems so surreal at the moment. I just looked like a total jackass and was desperately trying to get my mother to tell me what she really thinks. It was pointless. Everyone is being passive aggressive towards me and not saying what is going on with the living situation. I catch them in their lies and they just deny it all. Particularly my mother was acting smug towards me. She even had the gall to say she would move into a shelterā¦ with her income/money/clothes/jewelry/carā¦ thatās a serious insult. That was the lie that I caught her in, because what slipped out before that was that she would āmove into an apartment on herāā then she interrupted herself to say that instead.
Iāve become increasingly quiet but not hopeless. I have some options itās just a matter of looking into them/doing the work.
I just feel bad for speaking at all sometimes because it doesnāt do any good. I donāt hate my family but I still think theyāre all pretty damn despicable. Partly I understand them and that it isnāt their fault, but they continue to make the same mistakes/problems every day.
So I havenāt slept since like 24hrs ago. Came in early to use the computers at the library and walking distance to the small shopping mall. So grab some caffeine and want to buy some ear phones so I can listen to YouTube songs as I type. This like 17 year wearing nothing but a leotard and tutu face painted up like a cat literately jumps on me as soon as I walk in the door. Iām still shaking but figured it was Halloween pretty soon after. I need sleep sigh.
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i canāt remember my own name
i think iāve gone insane
You may can still live with your family.
My pdoc told me the other day āthe best way to achieve inner peace is to finish all the things you have started!ā
So I looked around my house to see things I started and hadnāt finished; and, before leaving the house this morning, I finished off a bottle of Pinot Noir, a bottle of Chardonnay, a bottle of Baileys, a bottle of Kaluha, a pack of Tim Tams, the remainder of bottle of my Prozac and Valium prescriptions, the rest of the Cheesecake, and a box of chocolates.
You have no idea how good I feel.
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THE VOICES ARE REAL! And itās pronounced to-may-to! To-may-to! Everyone says the voices are subconscious bull or some waking dream to do with too much dopamine in the brain. No! I donāt know how itās done, Iām not into conspiracy theories. But they are obviously real intelligences. Painfully obvious! Come on!
Good to get it out.
I heard a song yesterday that made me question things. I had blindly assumed that people I percieved to be like me would all be, well a lot like me. Iāve realised that my views are offensive to those who have suffered, and are suffering. we must do what is best for ourselves and I canāt pretend that what I see as my gifts are anything but a curse for most.
Care for each other as you have been and God be with you.
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i still have this delusion that people i admire knows of my existance and takes notice of me. logically this doesnt make sense but i feel what i believe to be real. sometimes i post weird things on twitter and of course i get muted or unfollowed when that happensā¦ i no longer talk about my obsessions with my aunt or friendsā¦ now i put it in public for the whole facebook to seeā¦ but everyoneās facebook is crazyā¦ people post weird stuff all the timeā¦ and no one really caresā¦
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What sort of weird things do you post?
besides my paintings and sketches which are not so weirdā¦ sometimes i post artwork that certain musicians doā¦ or weird music videos thats not mainstream and that my friends hateā¦
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Does not seem so weird, we all have different interests, I like to post funny stuff, but not all find my weird humor funny. Iāve toned it down over the years and most time iām looking for a witty come back.
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Do schizophrenics cry alot? i remember before meds i would cry alot and now i wonder whether that is bipolar or schizophrenia cos i have two diagnosis from two psychiatrist.
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Think it depends on the person mostly, many suffer from depression, like myself, life can be very hard then
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yesterday i read a few comic book pages onlineā¦ catwoman and spidermanā¦ i didnt know before that u can read online for freeā¦ 
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Been years since I read one or a magazine should go buy on just for old time sake
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Why is it whenever you see children or animals in advertisements on TV, theyāre always in distress? I immediately switch channels now at the first sight of either.
I really find schizophrenia.com is the only place I can be the real me.
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