I think you will.
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Good Saturday morning 
I have to pick up meds today that’s about it
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Gonna eat lunch then walk at the park
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Unfortunately there was indeed a call off, the one person I needed to have for me to get a break. It pisses me off terribly when I have to work 12 hours like this with no break, but damn, I really thought I would get a damn lunch break.
Okay, just venting.
How are y’all doing today?
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Thanks @HollyHobbie. I doubt it very much so given that im not as confident or charismatic compared to when i met her. But thanks
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Well, I lasted 11 days without taking any Ativan. Just took a small dose (0.5 mg)
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I hate raiding in mmos. The whole day of the raid I’m kinda paralyzed waiting for it. It’s like having a second job that doesn’t pay any money. The problem is I keep getting gear, the guild is amazing, and my character is more impressive than any of my characters when I was in my 20s or 30s. I’m pushing content I’ve never seen before. So I feel like I have to keep doing it. Plus I can chat with these other folks my age while playing and they don’t have to know I have sza, which is fun.
Anyway gonna be tonight 7-9:30 probably and after that I’m gonna chill and spend time on the forum. I’ve been trying to find new music lately, mostly using Apple Music’s personal radio station feature.
I wish my brother was doing better. His sz doesn’t seem to have improved at all like mine has, but he stopped all medicine so I kinda blame that. He’s living with his father now who believes a lot of out there stuff and isn’t the healthiest influence. He also won’t shave or cut his hair and you can barely see any of his face behind all the hair he looks like a caveman. It bothers my mom quite a bit.
im always experiencing some odd symptom. lately ill randomly have blood running down my legs. i know it is after scratching my legs, but i dont think too deeply about it then i randomly see like long tears of blood going down my shin. idk how it initially happens but basically like scratching an itch has resulted in reopening scabs that i dont remember how i got cut in the first place
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undecided for dinner menu today
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i read kratom inhibits the enzyme used to metabolize quetiapine pretty strongly. to the point there have been people who died with deadly levels of quetiapine in system from using kratom with quetiapine, im only on a small 50 mg quetiapine for sleep but when i tried kratom years ago i wasnt on it. invega ive been on for years but no issue because its not extensively metabolized by anything and basically goes through the body unchanged.
idk if this is something that should be deterring me from considering kratom use considering how small of a quetiapine i take but i imagine the amount in body continuously building up and not being able to be excreted would be possibly bad even on the 50 mg.
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good evening, everyone. just sorta not done much of anything today beyond game a little.
i’ve come to terms with the fact i just kinda need to make myself do everything because of my desire and unconscious tendency to go catatonic and how that meshes with my like lack of motivation that comes for me more often than not in this point in my life.
not really dissatisfied or bad feeling which is great news, just not sure what i want to be up to today, 1/2way into my weekend. bleeeeehhhhhhhhh
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Vistril what a joke! I can’t tell I’ve taken anything fyi lol
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hydroxyzine? i used to take hydroxyzine hcl, that stuff did Nothing to help my anxiety from what i remember. maybe i just needed a high dosage?!
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Just finished watching the end of evangelion again. Great film. It has a message of not to run away from people and the world and that we need individuality to create happiness with others.
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end of eva a CLASSIC…
i’m actually going back thru EVA as of recent, i really wish i could rewatch EoE for the first time all over again though. very important show for me, my fav anime ever even…
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Same here man. Eva spoke to me to the core. End of Evangelion is a masterpiece, I concur! Imo theres no other anime in its lane.
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I just watched the movie ‘get out’. I felt horrible watching it. It really triggered my anxiety.
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