How was your day
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I’m hunting monsters. Pinky doesn’t bother me none when I grip a controller. Just chilling while listening to creep cast.
That reminds me @Montezuma , I’ve never mentioned creep cast to you. It’s on you tube and spotify, it’s creepypastas read by wendigoon and meatcanyon. Some of them are pretty spooky.
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Oh that sounds fun! I’ll have to check that out. Thank you Agent. 
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I need to do some spring cleaning myself
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Just finished a 3 hour lecture for week 8 on HTML, CSS, and Javascript. It was long. Usually they are 2 hours long.
It gave a broad overview of the three languages.
Javascript seems neat. My former friend used javascript as a software engineer.
It gives me hope and confidence that I can learn things and do things.
I think I started the class in December or January. So I’m like a month behind. It’s self-paced though. I have 2 weeks left and the deadline for this course is in December.
I take notes too so it was very long. Seemed like it took the whole day.
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Morning everyone. Hope your all good.
@Turtle44 I also get intrusive thoughts. They are horrible to deal with. I hope they stop soon.
I’m on my second cup of coffee. Chilling.
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Good morning @Qwerty
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Morning. I’m listening to some chill music. Relaxing and having a coffee.
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Hey Tony I got a text message earlier today from the VA saying that my letter requesting a GI Bill extension had been fully downloaded. Hopefully they’ve read over it and are considering it. Let’s pray to the Lord, keep our fingers crossed, run through the forest naked, burn some sage etc. etc. LOL. 
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i need advice but im afraid to make my own post
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if u were having paranoid thoughts about your doctor would u tell them?
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I was getting worse on Vraylar. I was taking 6 mg of Vraylar and 120 mg of Cymbalta. I had a lot of delusions and even started having visual hallucinations at night when sleeping/dreaming. I think I had nightmares or sleep paralysis.
I thought I was getting worse with my schizophrenia because I never had hallucinations before.
Luckily, I went on Lybalvi 20 mg. It’s basically Zyprexa but it helps with weight gain. I’ve only gained 10 lbs, but I eat like crap and don’t exercise. I look fatter though. It’s an expensive medication. There are some side effects though.
So far, I haven’t hallucinated or had nightmares and I seem better and higher functioning. Even my most stubborn delusions have been gone. I had dozens of delusions on Vraylar like quantum immortality, past lives, aliens, and parallel universes, etc. I can see the impossibility and implausibility of it all.
It’s my overactive imagination and I was experiencing psychosis. I think large amounts of caffeine could have made things worse obviously.
Lybalvi has some side effects. I feel like I’ve gotten better because my room is clean now, I’m learning stuff, and I am doing more. I have limits to my working memory, but my false memories have subsided.
I had past life delusions for several years now. Probably since 2015. Maybe Vraylar was too weak for me.
I don’t regret not trying Zyprexa sooner because of the weight gain and risk of diabetes.
I’m still drinking energy drinks and smoking cigarettes. I have stopped eating hamburgers though.
I now see a talk therapist and have a dental appointment coming up soon.
Early on in my illness I had dissociation probably from trying marijuana in 2011. I thought the world wasn’t real and that I didn’t exist. It was scary. I didn’t really know what was happening, but I think it was derealization and depersonalization. I had it bad for years. Now, reality mostly looks real and I feel normal sometimes. I also don’t get panic attacks anymore. Panic attacks suck. I hated them.
I have insight into my illness and know I have schizophrenia.
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That’s really great news!
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OMG!
I just got through cleaning a ton of cheapo Fruit of the Loom tees out of my closet. I’ve accumulated a lot of them over the years because I would often order them so I could get free next dar/or overnight delivery.
A lot of them don’t fit me anymore because I would put them in the dryer for a certain amount of time but they’re really thin cotton so they would still shrink.
I’ve kept all my thrift finds from over the years though.
Congrats! 
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Yo y’all what’s up
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Just played my drumset. Going to pedal my bicycle on a trainer stand for a while.
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Im up earlier then usual today.
Good morning everyone.
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I was able to fall asleep a little after 10pm and sleep until 6am. I hope I can get my injection today.
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