Why do I play with some thing which have no proof of existence.
Because of which I cannot justify my actions anywhere.
I still remember when I told my pdoc,
I have a plotting mind, he was shocked.
I still remember his expression. Then I thought about what I said. And rephrased it saying plotting mind means people plotting against me.
After that he relaxed.
Still to this date, I wonder why was he shocked.
Does people with sz can develop a plotting mind? Rather than being plotted.
I think, I have to just do my thing, instead of overthink.
But over thinking of unusual stuff make me feel good more than actual reality based thinking.
I feel I am trying to take the easy way.
Yeah. It’s a hard process out of it to into it so to speak. We tend to worry about things like meanings behind actions…about things that aren’t real to others but are more real to us. It’s a journey. Keep positive and keep moving. I like to keep moving forward. Staying still isn’t so good in my book.