I understand and you are helping. Thank you.
Sorry you are going through this, I feel the same way, but we must go out, we must function, donāt let them get to you, maybe go out with a friend.
I wish John would keep following me.hes a guardian dead person.
I just heard bitch it wasnāt real.externally.
Theyāre probably going to kill me tomorrow I canāt leave this apt.
Is your bf at home with you?
Yes. I just heard someone laughing at me going downstairs.
Does your bf hear the neighbors too?
I am losing touch of reality I think.yeah heās here.
Very slim theyāre more talking ā ā ā ā rather than physical. Still worries me.
Iām delaying going to see crisis. Thatās not gonna stop them from hurting me.
Listening to me now and following me room to room
When I was psychotic I thought everybody is hearing what I am doing , is it the same to you ?
Yes from the apt above.
are You scared of your neighbors only or people in the city as well ?
Not so much in the city just the upstairs people.sept 17th whore 1117am.
They were talking about someone killing me.
Why do you think they want to kill you ?
IDK Iāve never done anything to them.theyre casing me right now
Iām sorry Roxanna but they are probably not following you room to room. Itās an illusion. Most likely they are oblivious to you and just randomly going about their day in their own apartment, fixing lunch, getting up to go to the bathroom, watching TV, doing housework, feeding the cat etc.
Most likely, as they go about living their lives, they have no idea that their daily routine is affecting you in any way. Neighbors are going to make noise. There might be a little truth that possibly perhaps they really did say something insulting or made a little noise to bug you. But I donāt think they are doing anything to the extent you say they are.You canāt expect them to be perfectly quiet and invisible and not make a peep as they go about their days. But your suffering is real; we all get that. But the reasons you are suffering (loud neighbors) is mostly in your head due to awry perceptions from one of the top ten disabling disease in the world.
Your schizophrenia is tricking you unfortunately, you can blame your problems with your neighbor on your disease, not the neighbors and I know from my own experience with this that when I isolate and Iām alone with my thoughts in a cramped little apartment too much, it is too easy to obsesses and focus on something like the neighbors.
Have you heard of Muhammad Ali the boxer? One of the greatest heavyweight boxing champions ever. He probably single-handidly invented ātrashā talking in boxing. I saw an interview on YouTube of some journalist talking about the fight Ali had with Joe Frazier another famous boxer. Ali, just insulted and insulted Frazier, on world-wide TV. Both men were black but Ali kept calling Frazier, āgorillaā and calling him ugly. The journalist commented, "When you start needling a guy constantly and get under his skin then the recipient, takes every little insult no matter how small, and blows it out of proportion and takes it too seriously.
Your situation is probably similar in that you are really sensitive to your neighbors noise and youāre at the point now that you might be so hyper-viligent and so sensitive that now, even the slightest noise upsets you and you let it really get to you. If they accidentally drop a fork on the kitchen floor you think they are trying to ruin your life. If they talk loud, you think they are trying to put you down and hurt you. You are blowing every little noise out of proportion and taking it personally and thinking it is all about you. Most likely, the neighbors are oblivious to any trouble they are causing you by just going about their day.