As I’m rearing the end of my prodome, I’m having difficulty coping with neighbors. Not sure how much of it is paranoia, but I don’t think they like me. But I have no idea honestly cause I avoid them at all costs. Just wondering your guys’ thoughts on your neighbors.
They hate you (paranoia)
They barely know you exist (you avoid them at all costs)
They know you have schizophrenia but don’t care
They are friendly with you
They know something is off about you but don’t care
I avoid neighbors too. I live in a suburb thats bustling with suburban Millenials walking their baby strollers, kids to school and dogs. Its alot of work to avoid them and I do.
I live on a college campus, which is probably the worst place for a schizophrenic to live, because it’s full of college kids that are at the prime of their life, and if any of them catch me walking outside like a goblin, it ruins their entire day.
Also, just had a sighting of one of my neighbors’ before I created this poll, and he seemed to give me the nastiest look. Or a look of fear, or it was all in my head, not sure.
It just sucks, wish I didn’t have to avoid people. But it is what it is. I think it’s like a primal instinct that tells people there’s something off about us (flat affect) and they don’t know how to react, so it tends not to be a favorable reaction. Also doesn’t help I’m full of self loathing, so that probably adds to it.
Like when I’m in a good mood, that’s when it’s the most jarring. But I’ve gotten used to not having any good social interactions. Maybe that’s bad that I’ve gotten used to it. Sorry, I’m full of self stigma.
Maybe it’s because I’m coming off Nardil, was great for my self esteem I think, increased dopamine, but was scared it was increasing positive symptoms. But I can’t combine nardil with abilify unfortunately. Already tried it and I had I couldn’t breath. Oh well. Will eventually try l dopa, just need to be motivated to order it.