Sometimes (more often than not) my head is like a radio. Songs come on at random and they can change whenever I want but I can’t really choose the exact song. Just genres.
It’s like my brain accesses old memories of music. Like songs I’ve totally forgotten about appear and play.
I’ve had this kind of auditory hallucination in my head for over 5 years now.
Sometimes I laugh about it cuz I don’t even need a music player. Other times its plain annoying.
Closest I had was back in my drug days. I had smoked a lot and my music player was on shuffle. Suddenly I started to hear this angelic sort of music. At first I thought it was god playing music for me. I then figured out it was just a track in my library I hadn’t heard before.
i’ve heard the bagpipes and flute bands before but i can’t help thinking maybe someone is playing it nearby but i don’t think so bc last i heard it was at around midnight and no-one would play bagpipes at midnight and i’ve heard it in the middle of the night before,
I deal with something very similar. It seems to be random music. One time I kept hearing this song that I heard in a movie. It just kept playing over and over. It doesn’t happen daily or anything but it got me a little worried. It’s like my brain recorded it it or something. It started recently. Within the past three months or so. It gets a bit tiring and when I’m in a conversation I can still hear music when it’s happening.
Other than that when the early onset of schizophrenic symptoms began for me I felt I could hear radio broadcasters. I thought I was psychic or something. It’s quite embarrassing now. But that wasn’t music.
I have music all the time. It is usually a song I don’t remember ever hearing before, and the lyrics are usually about what I’m doing. I tell people I have my own theme music.
A few months ago, I heard the song I had been calling my “don’t go to sleep” song, on a CD I got when I was a teenager. So maybe all my songs are things I’ve heard before but forgotten. Or maybe it’s just that one.
Shawty’s like a melody in my head
That I can’t keep out
Got me singin’ like
Na na na na everyday
It’s like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay AY.
AND THE WORST PART IS…
I don’t even like the lyrics.
I have a friend who is schizophrenic but hides his condition from me, although hints at it as if working up the bravery to tell me. I joined this group so I can have insight and understanding as a friend. I think one of the reasons we have been friends is because we do relate to each other to begin with (before his condition got bad).
I myself am not schizophrenic but can relate to it because I think I have been on the brink of becoming schizophrenic and fought to prevent it through prayer and due to the fact I have always stayed away from drugs.
Ways I relate are, I have heard music that I vaguely heard before but the construction of the songs have been rearranged and the words changed (as if to my emotions), oddly enough when I am around my friend but not a usual occurrence.
@VoiceOfFriendship I’d like to encourage you to join our forum for Family and Caregivers that can be found at:
While this is a peer support forum for people with schizophrenia and other closely related psychotic disorders, the Family forum is specifically for people like yourself, who have a loved one they are concerned about.
Also, please let your loved one know about this forum as they may find it helpful.
