They have a fixed view about you and blot all else out. Was asked in the usual offhand manner how I was. This time instead of saying “ok” or “not bad” on it’s own I added I could have been doing better if my aspergic/NVLD(non verbal learning disorder) symptoms had been helped. It was something I have been meaning to say for ages.
Reaction? None. I might as well have been talking to myself. At least I would have expected him to ask what NVLD is . Instead he proceeds to ask whether I have the depot in the arm despite him having given it in the other place more than a few times before and then proceeds with the stock questions “How are you sleeping?” and "How are you eating ".
They say to be open and honest with your pdoc/mental health team but in my experience they just choose to ignore you a lot of the time unless it gels with their preconceived ideas about you.
Then they wonder why recovery isn’t happening despite the drugs they give you and see you in a suspicious light ie "We’ve got an awkward one here,the ■■■■■■ won’t recover ".
Of course if I was to press the issue I’d get accused of being awkward,troublesome and demanding like before and be back to being persona non grata.
Yeah I noticed that both my psychiatrists that I’ve had ask all the same standard questions, mumbeling them at that, then if something is a little off they raise the dose on your meds. Wow, awesome, I remember how apathetic I felt last time, didn’t give a damn then, didn’t give a damn now. Boy I’m sure gonna have some enthusiasm in my future just you wait.
I had an experience this week where I was honest about something that had been bothering me and I was met with total silence.
It really got under my skin and I thought I’m sitting in a room with people who don’t know how to deal with me.
It wasn’t a mental health setting, it was at work but to do with my return to work program.
I’m sorry you had to go through that as well, especially at the hands of a mental health professional. That really sucks and makes me a bit angry actually.
My current pdoc actually has a very sweet-natured personality, and doesn’t strike me as being at all narcissistic. She’s generally empathetic. But she still ignores half of what I say, dodges some of my questions and so on. It didn’t take me long to figure out that doesn’t respect me. And not in a mean way, but like in a condescending, over-protective way. Like she made me sign a paper saying I had been warned about side effects, when she never mentioned side effect information at all, and she has made it clear in some of her comments that it’s because she thinks it’s best for me to be ignorant about possible side effects or else I might get nervous. Then when I have genuine anxiety problems, it’s dismissed as no big deal, like she thinks if she can distract me then I’ll forget that I have problems. I’ve also noticed that she always supervises me when I’m scheduling my next appointment, like she wants to make sure I don’t somehow screw it up, like she thinks I’m an idiot.
My wife went to the hospital. I thought her family should know. She didn’t want me to say anything to them, however. Sadly, she let them all know herself. Then, she got transferred to a new hospital. I asked her if I should E-mail the family, and she said that would be Okay. Two family member wrote back that they sent her wonderful flowers and gifts. So I wrote back to each of them that I was with C. every day in the hospital, and no flowers and gifts showed up.
Now C. calls me and really upset because both family members called her and wore her out. One even demanded she chase down the missing flowers.
I’m saying her family is abusive toward her. Apparently, that’s all they know. They invite me and her to feel awful.
I think psychiatrists are compassionate. They want to help. They DO lord it over us-most of them do this. Most of them have an attitude problem. There are too many sick people today and not enough psychiatrists. They are overworked and not able to understand their SZ patients because SZ is not really understandable. Some of them just don’t care anymore. They have grown indifferent to SZ’s. Too much trouble and suffering. We are too insightful for them. Some of them are quite arrogant. It comes with the territory. Today, it all boils down to medication.
I agree. My son has SK and gets disability and must be monitored to stay on disability…he definitely needs his meds and just switched from respodal to olanzapine, 10 MG., and seems so much better. Not drugged down like with respodal But true when he sees his therapist, the session is short and noted that he appeared for his appointment. Same with nurse practitioner, in and out, prescription filled and done. But my son doesn’t get involved either, so it’s a two way street, sometimes.
I’ve had doctors in the past who didn’t listen to me. one was the second psychiatrist I came in contact with the first one out of the hospital. Anyway she kept telling me the fanapt was working when it obviously wasn’t. It also was causing digestive problems and severe stomach cramps.
Another one was worst I kept telling him I was having problems he told me I just needed take a walk.
No…no we’re still here. Jut oppressed to the point of silenced. We’re still here as in I’m still here after drinking myself stupid drunk watching Breaking Bad after Marco Polo and Turn ran out of episodes.
We’re still here man, not extinct, I believe, looking back at the handfull of lovers and truth sayers I knew in my 20’s…we’re here, we may be scared (which I am not) but we are here none the less.