Thanks for the input!
Yeah I’ve tried all sorts of medications and it just doesn’t seem to work. I was up to 5 different medications at one point and none of it worked. I got no feelings from. It wasn’t effective at all and the only thing that happened from it was weight gain! Which I’ve been managing right now but I’ve been this heavy a couple of times in my life usually I’m between 200-165 and I’m well over that. I continue to have symptoms after stopping the meds, like I don’t sweat enough even though I get enough water a fluids in me everyday, I’m constantly constipated, I have no throbbing headaches what so ever or endorphin rushs when I workout, I have foggy thinking at times and its really hard to see through at times even with hope which I carry every day, my tension headaches I get no relief from whats so ever its been 13yrs now like this and every minute of the day that’s all I think about except when I’m on here surfing the web or doing things then I just get carried away and lose track of time.
Right now in my recovery. I’ve been experiencing a lot of feelings about my tension headaches and it just gets to me on daily basis. Its like everyday I try to think my way out of my feelings of the tension hoping that it will go away. I’ve been working on countering it with more positive reinforcements, because your body tends to go into fight flight mode when it recognizes threats and so I have to learn and be aware of my body language and how I’m responding to my problems, and its been working a lot more then I thought it would which is great.
Mostly with my mental health issues its under control. I have no stress with it at all. I live a normal life like anybody else. In the past it wasn’t this bad but once I got “diagnosed” it just started get worse over time how odd! huh?.. Right now I’m on way to saving 6k a year and I’m pretty much making my money work for me. Nothing wrong with that. I get these rewards through my bank but it pays off the more I spend etc. Its pretty good. I’ve tried changing things in my life. I’ve been sober 4yrs now, I do some volunteer work for a couple days a week, I’m reading about 3-4 books a month right now getting close I should say, I workout almost everyday either outside or at my apartment, I try to go out and see a movie once or month or be around different people. I’ve tried all of it to get some relief and nothing seems to work.
the more I dig into my mental health problems. I actually got more relief then anything because I went beyond the call of duty to understand fully what the hell has been going on with me. How I feel more or less like a targeted psychic individual, because of uncle sams which hunts that they have. Its not just foreign but it has to do with psychics as well and they target them and they tell them they have this mental health issue like sychizophrenia and that’s truly what I believe because my symptoms are inconsistent and I feel like I’m being feigned to death hahahaha… I’m sure I’m not the only one out there that sees things this way but I choose to do things this way because of some of my circumstances and my delusions and how I feel theres a conspiracy over my head, but with higher authority with people with psychotronics, because they have this website DTIC.mil and they have a bunch of information online about things pertaining to issues like these. I feel this conspiracy is based around networked psychotronics and network centric warfare and irregular warfare and the best tool or advantage is the getting the massage across loud and clear what its really about.
Anyways Ill stop with the ranting on my mental health issues! Thanks for the input guys hope you have a wonderful day!