I’m starting to accept my depressive delusions and when I look back, I think to myself: “Why did I think that way?”
It sucks when psychotic depression makes you fall into deep depression and psychosis.
I’m trying to control my delusions but it’s hard. They make you believe that everyone’s against you. It’s hard living in fear 24/7 and hating people as a defense.
I hope that I stop feeling like this but I’m pretty sure I will still feel like this because it’s a fixed belief.
When I was off meds psychotic I hated ppl. I felt that they want to hurt me and are trying to make me feel bad, humiliating me. Meds fixed that so yea its not necessarily permanent, meds can help.
Yeah, meds helped me a lot. There was a time when I believed everyone was plotting against me. I had to fight off the delusions as much as I can by saying I don’t like people. It scared the hell outta me.
I miss my delusion. I had one grand, fixed delusion that appears to have been cured by 2 shots of Invega a year ago. I stopped Risperidone 6 months ago and my delusion is just a memory. Bummer.
delusions are tricky in nature usually don’t surrender to it medications helps a lot and cbt is also so helpful try to visit a phsycatrist it will helps a lot as it helped me
I do not have paranoid delusions personally. However I do have enormous amount of other kinds of delusions. Some of them result in me feeling seething hatred for all people. My hatred is so intense that I end up sitting or lying in one position for up to eight hours straight just thinking about how much I hate people and modern civilization.
I casually watched some historical documentaries that related to head trauma. Particularly there was a suggestion that feeling of hatred and increased aggression in patients is a response to brain damage, not necessarily schizophrenia. That is, the instinct of self preservation in action, that tries to prevent even further brain damage.
In retrospect for my own condition it seemed as a surprisingly plausable excuse for my scenario, since I did suffer one or two cases of head trauma as a small child.
Medication did not help me, I probably need something much stronger.
The struggle to control one’s delusions is permanent for every schizophreniac, regardless of the details.