I don’t think one in a million is a fair ratio
You are too hard on yourself
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Maybe, but as far as I have seen not even one soul have same kind of blunders that I made in life to my knowledge. All have issues and my issues little peculiar ones. If I am able to identify with 1 or 2 people same as me I would be little content. For now, just have to hope that I do not repeat the same mistakes and learn from it.
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I definitely go shopping and waste money when I’m manic. It feel like an itch I have to scratch, and there is no relief until I do. My last really bad manic episode cost me thousands, like @LevelJ1. Hubby won’t let me return stuff, though. I ws going to be an astronomer and spent so much on a spiffy telescope and every accessory I could find for it. So many accessories. And guitars- I tend to buy guitars when I’m even a little manic. Then they need accessories, of course. I was going to set up a sewing thing, so I got a sewing table, a pretty chair, hundreds in fabric, a machine… again, all the accessories. And purses. What do I need with 10 purses, you ask? I don’t know!
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Why doesn’t he allow you to return things?
I don’t know, to be honest. Earlier this week, I was looking at a purse that I thought I might return. It’s a coach purse, and I have a matching wallet for it. Total would have been around $600. Hubby said no, though. I think our upbringing plays a role. My parents would put my bike (I won it; they didn’t pay for it) in a pawn shop pretty regularly. They would ditch a lot of our stuff during our overnight moves. I guess I learned not to get attached. Hubby always forgives me, but he thinks that if I get something nice, I should keept it because it’s now mine. I just don’t have that level of attachment.
**This includes the $450 Dyson hair dryer I bought. I don’t blow dry my hair, FYI. So keeping some of it is just silly.
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I spent huge amounts almost have 1 million rupees debt which I need to spend years to close… It was out of roaming to hotels and spas and buying things for my needs and not worrying about the family… Now I see it as something I cannot explain. It is beyond myself. As if I was a different person then and now. After getting treated and it worked.
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I’m glad the treatment is working and sorry you are burdened by a lot of debt.
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Yeah I’m really sorry that you have to deal with that but again I just don’t think that you should be beating yourself up so much. If it’s mania it’s due to illness. Maybe you’ll find people who have gone through something like you and you just haven’t found them yet
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Hiya @Melomaniac— I just googled 1 million rupees to USD and I have defos spent that much during mania and impulsive streaks before (not all at once, but over the course of several manic episodes).
It was really shameful having to tell my parents about my debt afterwards. They have helped me out so much. The kicker is I have done this twice now, and that is where the shame comes from.
Hang in there— it’s common after coming out of mania to be ashamed and want to beat yourself up about these things. I hope you’re in a better state now and that your meds are helping— which ones are you on?
Best of luck to you 
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Yea @FreeLunch I have to not beat myself for it. I am learning move past that and find some peace in what I am doing for now.
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Hey @Schztuna thanks for the motivation. I am on Sizodon LS which is risperidone and another med combination 2mg + 2mg. It is kind of helping me now. I am working on learning from mistakes and improve my cognition and memory part to stay in the hunt.
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Im in the same boat. Exact same thing happened to me
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I am not alone on this. Thanks. It helps to know it is somewhat a common phenomenon.
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Hey I needed atleast 5 backup batteries for a digital slr cam that i used twice 
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Oh dear lord, I’m glad I never thought of backup batteries! I got a $200-something 17 hr Celestron battery for my telescope. More than one would be nuts.
It’s really nice to hear I’m not alone in this sh*t.
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I had a good small business when i was doing that stuff, so it actually prevented me from learning my lesson for quite some time. I hope i can start a new small biz one day.
I like shopping on television on HSN and QVC late at night when I can’t sleep. I spent $150 on crab cakes. They are good crab cakes.
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I’m totally starting a business with my sewing stuff. Gotta do something with it!
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My “i dont need it, but by golly, i need it” item is these chocolates that have to be shipped from Brooklyn. If I buy a few, it ends up costing at least $100, which is insane for candy and even moreso when it’s revealed that I rarely eat or like chocolate. Heck, I won’t even take a test bite of chocolate chip cookies I bake because I hate them passionately. So I can’t judge you for crab cakes. 
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