Living clean in the face of extreme temptation is a challenge sometimes but once you lock in your resolve a sort of endorphin type of feeling comes over you. It’s almost like a little reward for your achievement.
When I quit back in 1995 I completely removed all temptation and stopped associating with anyone who had anything to do with that lifestyle and eventually moved 8 hours away where I had no connections so I didn’t have this experience.
Right now I have two people that I’m close to that are battling their addiction and still actively using around me and they are people I’m not willing to let go of. So, I have had to learn a new skill, resisting temptation.
I moved out of the old apartment building with all the drinking and drug use there. This Sunday I will have a year sober now. It’s been easier being in a building where there’s no drugs and very little alcohol.
I have been clean and sober a long time myself. I slipped on alcohol a few years but wouldn’t have more than three drinks. Some of the antipsychotic medications have made me enjoy sleep so much it almost killed me. Do you work the twelve steps Leaf?
No. Just the one step for me - don’t do it no more. I’m supposed to be outpatient rehab but except for intake, every single appointment has been interfered with by something one way or another, on his or my side. I have an appointment next monday, I’m dying to see if it gets cancelled again.