I rarely feel anything but numbness, I can’t feel love, I feel like a cold hearted person. I don’t empathy or care about anyone… Does that make me less of a human and more of a monster? I would like to think it’s all from the medicine but I’m sure it’s not all the medicine.
For me it’s the disease
Probably the flatness. It is awful, but you are no less human. I doesn’t mean you are cold just indifferent in the moment. I get this way too and feel bad for not expressing excitement over things I should, but in the end, it isn’t us. You may bounce back soon too as it is often part of the diseae. Good luck.
Those are negative symptoms; all schizophrenics have those symptoms.
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I think they call that “having a flat affect”. I have it too. My emotions are all screwy.
Negative symptoms. I have that too. But I do what is morally right. If I see someone fall on the ground, I go there to see if I can help. I don’t feel his or her pain but maybe I can do something. My logic and moral parts are intact. I know what is wrong and right. I know logically what I am supposed to do.
Like when my kids injure them selves. I know what to do, how to comfort them. But I don’t feel their pain. They don’t have to know that! I have not told my kids I feel nothing. We cuddle and hug a lot. They need it. But I am numb. I’ve become a great actor. I do it for them. They need to feel loved.