Isolaiton
I like to withdraw
I don’t like to interact
Why
Am I scared
Am i not wanting any company
Why
is it the disease that makes my brain not want to see anyone
Isolation
Just about all of us with sz experience this lonely feeling
I don’t like it but I live it
Isolation
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For me it’s a fear driven reluctance to interact rather than a plain,vanilla, dislike of interacting. I’ve had periodic attempts at F2F interaction. None have gone well. All have made me feel varying degrees of hurt and upset. Pushing past the severe social anxiety and the trauma induced non bizarre paranoia is damn hard. The psychological boost from doing so - non existent.
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I really like isolation to the point where I frighten my family half to death with solo paddling trips on rivers and lakes in challenging conditions. The thrill of it recharges me. But, it is bad for me if I cut myself off completely. Have to balance it out and let some people in.
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i have family who are supportive emotionally still… i feel lonely and isolated socially.
judy
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I like a mix of social and solitary. More social than solitary for myself.
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As a child I got comfortable with solitude. As an adult it was the opposite. With schizophrenia, I try to find a balance - not always possible. But perhaps it will be something I’ll improve on.
@simpjeff1 i didnt think you had this problem of isolation ? I dont understand i thought you had found success mentoring etc
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I feel you. In my case it seems i not only have social anxiety, but i also dont really want to be social in some ways. For example i feel i dont really get the good feelings within myself from pleasant interactions with people that most others get. Its a strain on my focus ability and can be a bit exhausting to converse, especially group conversations.
But then again another part of me really wants to branch out and have good decent mates and community/tribe. And It would be extremely beneficial for my mental health to be regularly around people i like.
Lucky ive got my girlfriend to keep me semi-sane haha.
Lets make an effort to get out there amongst others in the coming days ay simpjeff1?
I’m starting to get tired of solidarity. Its overrated. Being with people is nice. Although I do like my alone time.
I like being isolated and a loner pretty much with maybe one to two friends and I am ok with that too many friends for me would overwhelm me plus I don’t like to be bothered with people visiting my home or calling me on the phone I don’t call the friends I do have at all, and they don’t me either. Most people give me bad vibes which I probably give off as well so I’m pretty much unapproachable to a lot of people. My Aunt is the exception on the few people I interact with and socialize with either meeting for lunch or walking the bike path.
I am a loner and always have been. When I was a young woman, I used to get crazy lonely. Now, I never get lonely anymore even though I am single, live alone, have no pets, no car, and hardly ever go anywhere.
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I have found some success. I’m referring mostly to previous years and my state of mind.
i’m solitary by habit, but not by choice.
there’s a part of me that’s extroverted that clashes with my more schizoid tendencies. and i have a hard time networking with people IRL and even online with this aspect to me in mind. i actually do fine in big social settings, to my memory, i’ve always been really sociable.
but, i spend a lot of time alone. i hate it, but i’m used to it. part of my eternal loneliness is the urban sprawl i have always known making it so hard to just get out and meet people.
i do alright on my lonesome cause i’m used to it. i’m in pain about it right now, even. but i’ll be okay.
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It used to freak me out even being introverted. You get used to it in time. Its not ideal, but there are many ways being alone can help with mental pain and sz symptoms
I feel so tired of socialising. I got only three people in my life as friends and a team of five support workers, caseworker, recovery coach and doctor. I don’t know the mental health services played nasty on me calling all my friends up from my phone list. That is certainly not good for my mental wellbeing. I mean give me some privacy please.
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I’m glad you’re ok. I spent a lot of time by myself for a long time early in my diagnosis. It wasn’t until I started going to groups and making new friends that I realized how lonely I really was. Thank God I met my wife and we’re always together. I Love that tight companionship.
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really happy that worked out for you, honestly. i’ve known i’m some flavor of schizo-whatever since i was a teenager, but i only got the diagnosis confirmed kinda recently. much as i was prepared for it one way or another, everything’s just…changed, regardless.
i really just pray there’s an end in sight to me being on my lonesome all the damn time.
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Ah yeah man I feel the sting of isolation also. Used to be alright in terms of socialisation but ever since my psychosis 2 and a bit years ago, it’s been a struggle to talk to even my closest friends. My mind is plagued by overthinking and I self monitor a lot during social interaction and I feel bad when my friends can sense that I can’t speak to them as well as I used to and that fills me with dread. Leading me to isolate and withdraw from them.
However, I believe things are getting better. I’m starting to appreciate being around my friends a bit more I think, I hope. Things might be the same for you too.
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I remember early on in my diagnosis I hardly talked and withdrew a lot. I made a quantum lead in my recovery process and my ability to socialize after I started a better med. Man, that was much later in my life though. i’m good now but looking back on it I lost a lot of time to isolation. Sure, sometimes I enjoy isolation and just being alone with my own thoughts. But for many years I took it to an extreme which I believe wasn’t good for my mentla health.
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I used to crave interaction, intimacy, etc so deeply it was painful because I’ve been isolated for much of my life against my will, but now I’ve come to a point where I’d much prefer to be alone than interact
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